Friday, October 31, 2003

Hopelessly hopeful


sorry... I got so silly just now before break-fast that I just had to laugh at myself!! kekkeke!!!
Gosh, I need to take a break.. and think less about things.. heehee~!
Bahijah, laugh at this >> "Wanie kan kuaaat..." kekkekke!! Thanks Bahijah!! I was strong, wasn't I? ekkeke!!

Went to Bahijah's class in the afternoon, and after we left the classroom, we hung around STAD building 'coz we didn't feel like going back to our rooms.. And when we left that spot, we hung out again at the staircase! HAHAHHA! Lepak sahaja!! Visited the bazaar but was uninterested with everything and somehow decided to have break-fast at the Street Mall.
Bahijah, stop laughing!
And then.. bumped with Dar and his family! heehee~
Bahijah, I said stop!!!
Break-fast was fine, really... especially since it was on Bahijah!! HAHAHHA!!
Okay, laugh a lil' bit more, Bahijah...
Kenyang kenyang~~~
Stop laughing NOW Bahijah!!!
Okaay.. my dad's coming... have a nice weekend peeps!!

Knocking my head silly~~ *tuk tuk* (the sound of knuckles on head)

Absolutely. . .

Kinda just woke up...
Still sleepy, really! But it's too high-noon to stay in bed.
Anyways... the morning sahur was quite fun! heehee~! Ate in Puchong, and joked around with the peeps (Bahijah, Asha, Dzayed and his mates; Butet and Pejang) Berbalas teka-teki and it was horrible! HAHAHA! For instance:

Sing ape yang paling bernilai kat satu Malaysia nie?

bluerghh! Biol kan? ekkekeke! And this one is super silly..

Ape jadi bila kotak ditebalikkan?
(re arranged the letters in backwards!)

huhuu.. mengarut! And this is another one, while we were in the car..

Butet : Mula, mula ade 111.. lepas tu 222.. lepas 222.. 333, lepas 333, 444. sampaaaaai la 999. Ape lepas 999?
Asha : Ape lepas 999?
Wanie : polis datang?
Bahijah : Ape lepas 999 aa? Kat tv.. ape lepas 999??
Dzayed : Misteri Nusantara!
Butet : Betuuuuuuul~!

ekekke! Had quite a fun with those guys.. though sleepy. hehhe! Layan lagu tamil mase makan. (we were at a mamak restaurant!) And surprisingly it was funnn!! That was most of the reason why we were laughing loads while having our sahur. :))
Duit tinggal RM2.. Papaa~ Nak balekk!! Papa didn't call last night.. :( I wonder.. But I was asleep right then, so macam.. peliknyer! Cam tau taau lak orang tengah resting.. takmo kaco.. ekkeke! :D
Suddenly remembered the conversation we had two nights ago. You see, when I SMSed home, I'd say to send my regards to everyone at home, including the baby! heehee~ And then;
Papa : Nina kem salam..
Wanie : Waalaikumsalam.. baby? baby??
Papa : Nina kate, baby pon...
Wanie : Yeaaaaaaaay~!!

ekkeke!! I don't know what's up with me! But I imagined that small kiddo REALLY send her regards.. HAHHAHA!! That would be SUPER cute though.. heeheee!

O heyy.. I didn't knew that I had this song, at all.. It is by farthest.. one of the most stupid *NSYNC song I've ever heard! HAHAHA!! Sorry fellas, I love you.. but it's just lame! ekkeke!

Could it be you?
I've been searching so hard to find
Tell me, How could I have been so blind?
You were here all the time
Could it be you?

You never looked as good to me as you look tonight
Oh yeah
It's like I've seen you for the first time
through a lovers eyes.
Oh Could it be
That I never knew its always been you that I've been looking for
You were always right here by my side
Oh yeah

Could it be you?
I've been searching so hard to find
Tell me, How could I have been so blind?
You were here all the time
Oh Yeah
Could it be you?

The girl I always have dreams about
The one I just can't live without
Is it so tell me now
Could it be you
Can you imagine what it's like to always live without love
I need to have you in my life
I think I know that now
My open heart (open heart)
Make you a part (make you apart)
A part of this lovin I've been keepin (i've been keeping for)
And I might just give it all to you
Oh ho

Could it be you?
I've been searching so hard to find
Tell me, How could I have been so blind?
You were here all the time
Could it be you?
The girl I always have dreams about
The one I just can't live without
Is it so tell me now

Every girl I meet
Though they might be sweet
They can't compare to you
So I search no more what I'm looking for
I know I found in you

The girl I always have dreams about
The one I just can't live without

Could It Be You

note: some new pictures of FRIENDS have been uploaded!
...having yet another wishful thinking right here...

this is the coolest!!

Crush Calculator!

makes me dizzy when I think about it!! :D
Try it!!

Thursday, October 30, 2003

5th post for today!!

hahaha!! I've been posting such loads today!
Okay! what should I say in this post..
O yeah.. wish I had brought my digicam along this week.. but it's at home.. probably being used to take loads of Anis' pics! heehee~ :D
Went to Design Process in the afternoon for nothing, considering we (Bahijah, Anaconda, Asha and myself) didn't do anything much to consult. huhuu~ Ana recieved a love letter.. hohoho! You're procrastinating (spelling?) too much, kiddo!! gRrRrR! X(
Umm.. then, me, Bahijah and Asha spent the rest of the afternoon in the tv room talking.. And when Ana came to join us.. so I went up to my room to get the Saidina board and we played there. Bahijah won the game overall and I was second.. Asha third and Ana last.. the sum of her whole property was only 6 thousand something, I think! hahha!! And Bahijah's was 21 thousand! kekekke! Melampau ekk?? heehee~!
While we were in the room, we watched a Thai series and it was horribly funny!! It was supposedly serious.. but it was uncontrollably funny!! kekkeke! And there were lots of other people in the room as well (as we were playing Saidina loudly) watching the series.. and everyone was laughing around too! heehee~
Near 6, Bahijah myself and Asha met up with Dzayed and we went to the bazaar at Putrajaya! (Ana already left to meet up Jai) We were a bit late, really.. but we managed to spend uncontrollably anyways! hahha!
We ate near the Putra mosque.. picnic-ing! heehee~! It was loads of fun.. :D Got back here at around 8..
Kinda sleepy right now.. was lacking of sleep.. so I better rest...


Found this at one of the blogs I've been looking at.. kinda interesting (the questions!) So I copied it, and decided to answer it here.. weeeee~! As if anyone really cared...

1. What is Love?
err.. weird stuff.. plays with the heart

2. Are you in Love?
madly in Like, yess...

3. Have you ever been in Love?
the illusion of Love, yess...

4. What about Love at first sight?
nope, but Interested at first sight.. hehhe!

5. What is the most important thing for you in a relationship?
the guy, obviously.. or there won't be any relationship

6. Is sex important in a relationship?
I hope not!! yikes!

7. What happens if you absolutely love someone to death, you are so in love with them, yet they are horrible in bed?
shut up about it.. 'coz supposedly I love him to death.. I'd be dead if we somehow decided to be apart after saying something about it!

8. What happens if you are in a relationship with someone who is the absolute best in bed, however, you have come to realize that you don't like them anymore?
err.. say something about it, I suppose. but if the spark is really gone... I'd leave.

9. Have you ever been cheated on?
I'd say.. no. have I? no... I think not..

10. You're in a relationship of 5 years and your mate cheats on you. Do you give them another chance?
pathetically, yeahh.. never been in a relationship that lasted longer than 3 months so, the guy must be something that it got us through 5 years.. huhuu~

11. What if you are with someone that you believe is the one to marry; you are perfect together. Yet, the money and job stability just doesn't seem to be happening with this person and you are not too sure it will ever be great?
never mind... we can both work!

12. Why is it so important to people to not be alone? Why do we feel the need to share life with a partner?
I guess... somehow we need the acceptance from someone that takes us for who we are.. even how crappy you think you are.. they still want to be with you no matter what! :D

13. Are your parents married or divorced?
married, but troubled.

14. What's a bad habit that your partner has that you don't like? (For those of us that are with no partner, name a habit from the past guy / gal pal)
hahhaha!! plenty! no point of telling it.. but I used to like him very much so I didn't give too much thought about it... :))

15. How are you going to have a successful family? What makes you better at it than anyone else? How is it that your family is going to be happiest and most loved?
I don't know.. just do the things I do and hope for the best, I guess! that's all I can do, really...

16. And a few fun questions: What is your favorite soap?

17. Favorite toothpaste?
kodomo lion!!! hahaha :)) too childish, though.. colgate, then!

18. And lastly, pick one: zebra, carrot, coffee, a penny, a pen, or a tree...
though I don't know what's the relevance.. coffee!

weeeee~! I love taking quizez like this! Gonna find more! woo~hoo!! 8-}

EXACTLY how I feel...

hahhaha!!! Maaan, I love this song!!Started loving it since the first time I ever heard it on the radio.. Been loving it up 'til now.. Fell in love with it all over again evertime I listen to it!!!
And what's more.. last night.. when there was no network connection in my room, I browsed through my long playlist and this song played by cue.. Somehow my heart skipped a bit.. 'coz it is reflecting my very bits of feelings!!! It just amazes me!!
I should be dedicating this song to someone... :D

Hanging By A Moment by Lifehouse

Desperate for changing
Starving for truth
I'm closer to where I started
I'm chasing after you

I'm falling even more in love with you
Letting go of all I've held onto
I'm standing here until you make me move
I'm hanging by a moment here with you

Forgetting all I'm lacking
Completely incomplete
I'll take your invitation
You take all of me now

I'm falling even more in love with you
Letting go of all I've held onto
I'm standing here until you make me move
I'm hanging by a moment here with you

I'm living for the only thing I know
I'm running and not quite sure where to go
And I don't know what I'm diving into
Just hanging by a moment here with you

There's nothing else to lose
There's nothing else to find
There's nothing in the world
That can change my mind
There is nothing else

Desperate for changing
Starving for truth
I'm closer to where I started
I'm chasing after you

I'm falling even more in love with you
Letting go of all I've held onto
I'm standing here until you make me move
I'm hanging by a moment here with you

I'm living for the only thing I know
I'm running and not quite sure where to go
And I don't know what I'm diving into
Just hanging by a moment here with you

Just hanging by a moment
Hanging by a moment
Hanging by a moment here with you

Adohh Jason Wade~~ :x
(banyak pula posts this morning ekk? ekkekek! just felt like talking plenty, kot! weee~ 8-})


bad mood la pule ngan rakan-rakan kesayangan saye nihhh.. X(
But I guess that's been my friendship's like.. I always get bad mood about them.. hohoho! 'Coz I expect very much from them, to be honest. But I never really shouted at them when it happen. 'Coz that would be VERY bad! Heavens would punish me if I did, for they've brought me more of joy than sadness.. And it's totally my fault if I was too expectant from them.. And if I 'severe' ties with them.. who knows, maybe I might never find the friend that would seem even more perfect than my friends already were... hehhe.. I am totally alike Tohru in this case... :D

SAGITTARIUS November 22 - December 20
You are gentle and generally have complete control over your emotions. You do not get angry quickly and others marvel at your tolerance levels even when provoked. Actually, you get tongue-tied when angry and you will walk away from an ugly scene waiting for the other person to calm down. Then you will reason with your opponent and convince the other person in a very gentle manner that the whole thing was just a silly mistake . You're also likely to totally severe ties with someone when you're upset with them.

hehhe.. that's only half true. I don't severe ties!! Unless.. I was really upset with them... errr... and that had already happen.. err.. 2-3 times... huhuuu... Well, I had been non-expectant to them.. and they still upset me. That was hard, really! And I usually get tongue-tied when I'm angry 'coz I keep reminding my head how stupid I would sound.. shouting at people. 'Coz that is what I am when I'm angry.. STUPID. When I was smaller, I was one loud, shouting brat.. and Nina would say how stupid I make my case when I was shouting. And it was true.. everything seemed lame at that time.. So, getting tongue-tied is not my choice. HAHHAHA!! Just for the sake of myself, really... :)) I don't want to get mad, AND look stupid at the same time anymore.. HAHAHHA!

bahijah (3:18:14 AM): dont depend on one person no matter how trustful they r..
bahijah (3:18:18 AM): nanti takut makan hati!..
wanie (3:19:00 AM): ye..
wanie (3:19:01 AM): true
wanie (3:19:04 AM): hummm
bahijah (3:19:30 AM): jom jommmm!~
bahijah (3:20:15 AM): i didnt say this that u can turn ur back on ur fren..
bahijah (3:20:31 AM): but if the situation is not somehting that u'r sure of..
bahijah (3:20:49 AM): better go for something yg nampak kan??

Bahijah always remind me of these things. You know.. to her, it's better to have LOADS of friends rather than having some few, close friends. I am the latter one. I don't have many friends.. but I do consider the ones I have right now are pretty close to me. (well, not all laaa~!) I pretty much trust most of my friends.. which Bahijah didn't approve too much. aAaAA!! What can I do! My every friendship ties since I get to know people in primary school has been pleasant!!! (that is.. until I get to MMU..) My friendship ties over here are absolutely weird! We are such great actresses, right Bahijah? We've been around here since forever, kan? :)

I was having a mood just now 'coz my friends are not up for class this morning, by the way. Ain't I just stupid?? I got upset just because I didn't get to the class that I didn't really like. Silly me! But the mood have receded now.. Really thankful that I even have some people that I can call FRIENDS! And what's more.. they really rocked my world!!
(Bahijah.. I'm sure you would never expect if one day Aine or Mar would do anything bad to you, 'aight? That's just how much I trust you and the others.. and I can't change the way I feel.. But if one day you did something.. anything to me.. I would perfectly understand that... :x You're just YOU, and I'm just ME.. and we're absolutely cool, aren't we?? :*)


Somehow there's no network in my room.. so this will be a bit late entry by the time I get to post it..

Okaay.. so I had a pretty rough afternoon.. but it got better later in the evening! Thanks to my mateys! :D
Went to the bazaar to find something for break-fast around 5:40. With Bahijah, we met up Asha and Dzayed there. I settled for.. err.. 2 ayam percik (rm1.50 each), roti jala (5 for rm2), popia goreng (3 for rm1), and bought teh bunga kekwa and A&W Rootbeer for my drinks.. huhuu..
Me, Asha and Bahijah then ate at HB3 with Faiz, Ana and Anaconda! (Dzayed had an exam at 8, so he couldn't join us.. Ana came a bit late, suddenly decided to join us.. which was GREAT! while I ran some strides to call up Anaconda when I saw her from afar.. and Faiz wanted us to accompany him 'coz he was all alone..) It was a nice break-fast! 6 people.. rase meriah! :D Cilok Ana's otak-otak.. and shared Anaconda's pulut panggang with Ana.. hahha!! Wanie banyak makan keee? Rase sikit je, though.. :D

We were done around 8.. And later, Asha, Bahijah and Ana came up to my room :x and we talked about so much things! :x Only God knows how much I love those gurls! The best company I've ever had since my school days! (still missing Muz, Hanis and Yat.. those lovable bastards! HAHHAA!! :*) Us four talked about things like current issues, politics and economy.. can you believe that??? HAHHAHA!! That was the first time we ever talked about serious things such as those! ekekke!! It was fun.. seeing how many things they actually knew about the country and the whole world! ekekeke!
And we also did that tilik tilik with daun terup! hohohoh! The favorite past time activity for me and Bahijah! :D Though I don't believe half of it.. it's nice to see that what I wanted to happen was laid on those cards.. HAHHAHA!! weng punye card.. pandai btol amek ati orang yang sedang gundah gelana! HAHAHHA!

After Dzayed had finished his exam.. Asha, Bahijah and me got ourselves ready, and headed towards Starbucks in Pyramid. (Ana refused to join us.. :() Funny.. we seemed to go there on a weekly basis.. (see last Wednesday's post!) I have been craving for a coffee ice-blend since Sunday!!! So, thanks Asha and Dzayed!!!!!!! :x You two are the coolest pair I've ever met.. Sorry for tagging you guys for so many times.. I can be quite like a parasite sometimes.. So punch me away if I get too hangy on you two.. wokeyyy????

Ahaa.. treated myself with a large Rhumba Frappucino with Whipped Cream.. Naseb lah mahal! (I do think it's quite pricey.. considering it's just coffee with crushed ice! hehhe!) I've been craving for so long! huhuu~ Been fonding of hanging about at cafes nowadays.. Been giving me nice memories everytime me and my friends hung out.. sukida!! O yeah.. the large drink have forced me to go to the loo twice within an hour! HAHHAHA!! But I am truly satisfied!! I love coffee!! :x
While we were in the car.. Papa called me and I lied about my whereabouts.. Sori Papa!! Just yesterday you said I should put more effort on my works but there I was.. in the car.. on the way to hang out! huhuuu~ Sorry!! But I was happy to hear you laughed on the phone. Apesal ek? I can't remember why you laughed.. ehheh!
Sheesh!! I've never been this homesick!!! Seems like I've been talking so much about home this week..
Baby Anis!! I want to hear you merengek so much!!! heehee~!

Okehh.. and it was 12 something when we left Starbucks and headed towards PJ for A&W.. decided to have that for sahur later.. heehee~ Felt like we were all high school kids.. Leaning on the counter, asking for the same things... 4 Combo number 2, regular please! hehhe!
Been having fun fun funnnn.. hanging around Bahijah, Asha and Dzayed! Except those two times when the two gurls made fun of my scare of heights and that time Asha laughed so hard when my lips were swollen. Benci btol!! :p But the rest of the time... FUN was all I had.. Thanks you two! :) :*
Bahijah.. I'll remember your words forever.. But I don't think I can ever give up 'too-much-hope' on the ones that matters to me.. If I do.. I wouldn't be me... kan?

ps: I noticed that somehow.. the way I typed.. was really Malaysian! Plenty of Malish around.. huhuu~
[finished typing @ 2:10am]

Wednesday, October 29, 2003

I find this quite true...

Conscious self
Overall self
Take Free Enneagram Personality Test


okaaay.. been cursing quite bad this day..
I am sooooooooooooooo bored!!! This has been the second day that I have the whole day to myself.. No class.. No NOTHING!! Stuck in my room like stupid.. *cursing*
So I do have my assignments.. but come on laa!! Not like I can't do it at night!!! I hate being stuck in this stupid boring *curse* room with nothing interesting to do.. and yes, ASSIGNMENTS ARE PLAIN BORING!!!!!!
*cursing yet again..*
Yesterday I missed my morning class.. so.. that means that I just freed my whole day.. And then Anaconda said that there's Photography today, so I've got myself looking forward to it and then, half an hour before the supposedly-class, she said there were no class, unless I'd like to book for the studio. EYHHH!! Tension nyeeeeeeeee!!! *curse*
I know yesterday I said I was happy with the thoughts that has been filling my time yesterday, but now I'm just cursing at them all.. STOP THE NONSENSE!!!
*cursing cursing* What's getting me so furious... I SHOULD'VE STAYED AT HOME!!! At least I get to see more of Nina's baby!!! GERAMNYERRRRRRRRR!!!! I could've been playing with her 2 days in a row!!! Arghhhhhhhh!!! STUPID MMU!!! I hate you so!!!! *curse*
I hate everything right now...
yeah.. including you!

bad baaad bad daaaaaaay!

It's Over

by Vertical Horizon

I'm here
Wide awake again
There's fear
There's something I call a friend
Hello again
It's been a while since I saw you here
I don't remember you saying goodbye, no

It don't matter, it's over
here I've been waiting
All my life
All this time

It don't matter, it's over
here I've been waiting
All my life
All this time

Here we go
Jump to the stars above
So low
Why do I fall to love
Hello, my love

This voice never called your name
This boy will never be the same

Oh, it don't matter, it's over
here I've been waiting
All my life
All this time

It don't matter, it's over
here I've been waiting
All my life
All this time

Don't let it end up this way
Don't spend another night afraid
Don't let it end up this way, hey

It don't matter, it's over
here I've been waiting
All my life
All this time

It don't matter, it's over
here I've been waiting
All my life
All this time

I'm here
Wide awake again


officially dizzy!!
things have been.. running through my head endlessly!
letih sebenanye.. 'coz I can't seem to shake anything off from my mind..
Secare tak langsung, just terfikir about loads of stuff.. :)

Anyways! Tadi Papa gave me his daily phonecall.. (just to check how I'm doing and where I was..) he's always like that!! Bile call, he'll ask where I was at that time.. (maybe sebab selalu dia call, I was outside kot! HAHHAHA!!) I couldn't lie! That's just not right! heehee~
Anywaysssss! The point that I was going to... my results dah sampai umah.. (lambat gile!!) And Papa asked if I could do better. He said I should get 3.5! HAHAHAH!! (that was what I did.. laughed really hard!) And of course, I said.. "baiklah.. wanie try.." :D And he said.. "what, wishful thinking ye?" hohoho!! I guess that's a bit of it! Wishful thinking.. hadohh~~ unwantedly, I was reminded strongly of someone! grrRrRr!!
And the REAL anywayyssss.. I told him to just concentrate on the A.. kekkeke! But then he kept nagging, (? not sure if it was a nag, but it went something like it..) but I understood his tone perfectly..
You know.. the way he speaks.. You know that he sounded more to worried+hoping than telling me to do better. Just love Papa for that!! He seldom TELLS! Gives me the freedom to think for myself.. Though sometimes I think it IS better if he told me what to do so I won't be too far astray.. ekekke!

Anyways! Nina is already at home.. with the baby gurl.. I guess she should be called Anis Izzati! I mean, that was the earlier plan. Don't know if they (Nina and Abg Min) made any last minute changes.. heehee~ :D I am so excited in seeing the little girl again!! Can't wait 'til the weekend!! I am SOOO going to hold her next time! weeee~!
Hope she'll be healthy.. pretty.. and charming!! Maaan, I think I have more wishes than Nina has for her child sometimes. kekkeke!! SO EXCITED!! October 27th!! Ramadhan 1st!!! And baby Anis was supposed to due on November 12th!! hahaha!!
Asked Papa if the gurl cry a lot. But Papa replied, "taaak, tapi dia banyak merengek cam Wanie" hohoho!! Wanie banyak merengek keeee?!! Then Papa demo-ed how the baby merengek! HAHHAHA!! VERY VERRRRYYYY EXCITED!!!
arghhh!! can't wait!!!

I have SO many works undone.. assignments that I should work on.. but I keep spending my time listening to my thoughts! huhuuu~ cemane nak dapat 3.5 nihh?? ekekke!!
"put on more effort, okay Wanie.."

Tuesday, October 28, 2003

:x :x :x

been spending my day thinking about things.. and I'm loving every thought of it.. Reminds me of my true self and the things I care about.. The people I truly care about, too! :D
Also been browsing some blogs.. and found some interesting ones! I love the fact that they're using some interesting lines in their blogs..

I've browsed through:
Foolish Desperado
Love the line in one of his posts.. If you can't be with the one you love, love the one you're with.. Kinda sad, really.. that line.. But interesting as well..
Delusions of Grandeur
I think there's 3 different people.. discussing the same things
They'll Never Find Me Here
I think I just like her blog... :D
Tangled Up In Lines
hehhe.. just like the one above.. I simply like her blog!
Killing Black Cat
And this one is Ana's!! I don't like it, though.. HAHHAHAA!! Kidding.. Promoting through the url here..


Monday, October 27, 2003

1st of Ramadhan...

Selamat berpuase semuaaa~!!
My first day of Ramadhan was pretty okay.. even though I was away from home.. ehee~
Actually got back to MMU yesterday, but I went straight to Mojjo's place and spent the night there.. watching telly and playing SAIDINA while we 'sketched' some things for Design Process. :D
Didn't get any sleep until we got back from sahur in Puchong with Dzayed and two of his friends.. And that was... around 6! So we managed to get some shut eye until 8, which then we woke up to get ready for Malaysian Studies at 9. Agak bongok laa.. our presentation.. huhuu.. Coz they (my groupmates who were working on the presentation) didn't get to finish their speech, and Zatul just told them to summarize everything. It was kinda a put-down.
Okay, then I headed back to Mojjo's place with her, and rest some while and went out for KL. Developed their (Mojjo and Dzayed) lomo films. It was fantastic!!! Totally awesome! I wish I could show you guys those wondeful pictures but sadly, I don't have a scanner with me right here...
Okayy!! Going to stop right there 'coz I have a bigger announcement!
I am officially an aunt!!
hahahaaa!! Nina gave birth to a reaaaally kawaai litte girl!! She's very small.. and she has this cute lil nose. Rambut sangat lebat.. pipi sangat gebu!! Wish I could hold her but I was too afraid.. she looked really fragile.. Thanks Dzayed!! And Mojjo too!! 'Coz they pretty much brought me to the hospital to visit Nina. heehee~!
Seems like I'll be going back this weekend after all! Saye nak jumpe anak sedare pertama sayeee!! weeeee~!

okehh! very tired right now.. should get my sleep, shouldn't I?
Gudnight dear friends.. no matter where you are.. :)

Thursday, October 23, 2003

What Am I To You ?

What am I to you
Tell me darling true
To me you are the sea
Vast as you can be
And deep the shade of blue

When your feeling low
Oh to who else do you go
See I'd cry if you hurt
I'd give you my last shirt
because I love you so

Now if my sky should fall
Would you even call
I've opened up my heart
I never want to part
I'm giving you the ball

When I look in your eyes
I can feel the butterflies
I'll love you when your blue
But tell me darling true
What am I to you

Now if my sky should fall
Would you even call
I've opened up my heart
I never want to part
I'm giving you the ball

When I look in your eyes
I can feel the butterflies
But could you find the love in me
Would you carve me in a tree
Don't fill my heart with lies

I will love you when your blue
But tell me darling true
What am I to you

Hahhaa! I am never into jazz but I guess Norah Jones is exceptional! I think her songs are very good and it means something to me. So somehow, I still can appreciate it though it makes me a bit sleepy. ehee~!

The day has been.. umm.. sleepy for me! Had a full blast of bad mood lah!
Waking up early to accompany Bahijah for her tutorial class so that she could finally go to her class! hahaha! (mulia la konon..) But the class was cancelled, so I assumed that my class on 10 was cancelled as well, but it wasn't!! hahhaa! So, secare tak sengaje, dah ter ponteng satu lagi OS tutorial.. huhuu~
Anyways, I spent the rest of the morning by sleeping.. woken up when Asha came by. Had lunch, and off to Design Process.. hahahaa! This is where the bad mood wave hit me.
We're starting a new project, Typography where we're going to create a new typeface out of a natural object. So.. me and my friends kept coming up with some sort of plant or animal but the lecturers kept rejecting the ideas! Then bila tengah duduk duduk fikirkan something, ade lak something happened. Bluerghhh!! Hit by an 'annoyed-wave'. So, after running away for some seconds, I hung around a lil bit more.. and when most of the class had already gone, we (there was me and Asha - among us girlfriends, who still haven't found a subject matter!) came up to the lecture table again. There are still some other people who haven't got a subject matter yet.. all of us were around the table. So yet again, I said some things for my subject matter, and still get rejected. Siap ade lecturer buat lawak bodo tuhhhh!!! HA - HA - HA !! You must really think you're amusing, huh? Naseb baik Wanie maseh blom tahap nak kurang ajar ngan lecturer.. Mau je Wanie naik angin tadik!!! HAHHAHA!! THAT would've been amusing, you JERK!!!
Well.. later sikit dapat jugek a subject matter.. Penat actually.. fikir subject matter, sambil kutuk kutuk lecturer dalam kepala.. isyk isyk isykkk...
Anyways! Afterwards me and Bahijah and Asha went to Tesco and Jusco to find some stuff, and only got back after having an ice-cream each! Went to Dairy King tadik 'coz we're getting a bit bored of McD's.. heehee~
So, here I am right now.. still sleepy.. still moody.. and still haven't pack up my stuff for home yet.
ehee~ puase tak abes ganti.. cemane nih? ekkeke!!

O yeah, did that 'bad percentage' test on Friendster.. and I got 56%! ehee~! An angel, I am not really! :D
And I got this post on the bulletin board, about girls and I really like this line at the end of that post;
"you can't make someone love you, all you can do is to be someone who can be loved, and the rest is up to the person to realize your worth..."


hehhe! Loving Vertical Horizon for the moment!!

Hajimemashite, Romo-san!!

another post for yesterday..
Did nothing much in the morning..
submitted the photography.. and were taught on the lighting in the studio. humm.. still need to find another member for the group work, but me and the gurls are blank! We've asked everyone that we have thought of! So.. biar ajelah dahulu..
later in the evening, me and Bahijah followed Asha and Dzayed to One Utama as they were going to buy lomography cameras. Asha's was a super sampler. It can catch movements with it's 4 lenses. While Dzayed's was a Holga.. yang agak lecehh! HAHHAHA!! The manual book was entertaining though
"Okay people!! Start licking!"
lick~ lick~ ekekkeke!!..
Ohh! yesterday was a crappy day!! Something bit my lips, I think.. so, sampai arini, bibir sedikit swollen at the side. BENCI!! It was so big, that I cried! Sebenanye bukan nangis sebab the lips.. tapi sebab Asha gi gelakkan.. I was a bit sad.. and then it went to pissed off so badly!! Rase nak hantukkan Asha kat pillar kat tempat parking space, tapi kang Dzayed taknak drive balek gi MMU lak! HAHHAHAA! So Asha, jaga mulut tu sikit ekk? I really like you, but kadang-kadang rase tak tahan with the things you said.. okay? :) :x
After getting the lomo, we drove to Taman Tun to see a photo lab, Applied Imaging. Wondermilk said that the lab knew pretty much about lomography, and Dzayed's camera is after all.. a bit complicated! :))
Then we looked around Mont Kiara Plaza.. and then hung about in Sunway. Details won't be elaborated.. :p

Wednesday, October 22, 2003

mojjo: wanieta..

*uhuuu~* that is the new nick that Asha and Bahijah have been calling me with these days...
Okay.. I think I'm going to tell here what I did the rest of yesterday since there was no post.. (been getting myself too tired, lately)
Yesterday.. woke up at 10, missing our (me and Asha) operating systems tutorial with Manoj!! AHAHHAHA! Anyways, then we (me, Asha and Bahijah) got ourselves ready and went to Bakway to get our films developed. While waiting for 3 o'clock (for the slides to be ready) we went to One Utama for our lunch.. and practically waste our time!
After getting our slides, we went to YS to blow up the images. Punyelah ramai orang.. bluerghh!! It had been crappy right then.. blablablaa.. (no mood to elaborate more)
6:45.. finally arrived back in MMU. Spent an hour relaxing and well.. calming ourselves down. 7:45pm, walked off towards the lecture hall for our OS midterm (without reading ANYTHING AT ALL!!) bluerghhh~ 8:45pm, got out from the lecture hall with Asha.. (tak sure la sebab pandai sangat or bongok sangat.. ehee~!!) after seeing a chinese girl submitted her paper, and seeing Bahijah signalling us to come out. Rase cam budak kecik yang duduk kat rumah.. Kawan panggil kat tingkap bilik, ajak keluar main.. :D Get the feeling? :)
Okaaay.. then.. umm.. later last night Papa and Mama came to see me (I needed money! uhuu~) and bawak Nasi Lemak from home. Dida made it lahh! Dengan ade daging masak kicap. :D Rase sangat rindu ngan umah! Remembering lagi 3 weeks Nina due.. ekekke!! Siap pesan kat Papa, bile Nina nak burst, come pick me up no matter what. hehee! Can't wait to get home this Thursday!! weeee~!! :x
Okaylaah~ That's all about yesterday..
Tengah kurang mood sebenanye nihh.. Suddenly hit by a crappy wave..
O yeahh, sebelom terlupa..
Eppy birthday Fairy~!

Tuesday, October 21, 2003

Girls night out!!

ana menikmati garlic cheese nan @ lotus! hahhhaaa~!!It had been a happy--crappy--happy again day for me! yeyyeyyy!!
Okehh.. going to re-write aaaaaaaaaaall the things I've typed earlier! bluerghhh~
The day started off with Asha calling me up, reminding me to go to class (uhuu~) And then.. instead of going to Malaysian Studies.. we (Asha, Ana and myself) actually went to Operating Systems!! Entah kenape ntahh!! Sewel kot Wanie.. langsung terlupa! Pastu ye yeee je bawak Ana ngan Asha masok lecture hall.. sampaaaai la tersempak ngan mamat grup kitorang ingatkan! HAHAHHA!! But then me and Asha were there for only half an hour.. then we went to the tv room and watched [V] Remote Control!! HAHHAHAA~!! Teruk kah? ekekke!!
Then.. when I got to my room, Sheeya was there. :) She was sitting around, waiting for her class at 12. At 2 something, me Asha and Bahijah went to etheatre for our lecture and what did we learn?? Keeping a friendship is very hard!! O yes it is... :(
Anyways, after class.. me and Bahijah went to Asha's house and watched Smallville.. lepas tu, went to take pictures at Putrajaya and had dinner in Presinct (spelling?) 8, which then we saw Alitt with Fairy! ehee~
Got back at around 10.. (tried posting but then it went blank 'coz of the stupid connection!!)
Got bored with the computer and decided to go to sleep, but then Bahijah came to my room saying that she need to save Anaconda!! HAHAHAH~! So it happens that Anaconda went to KL by bus and on her way back to Cyberjaya, something went wrong with her bus and they had to stop. Maka, me and Bahijah got into the car (Bahijah's mom's car..) and drove around the Cyberjaya district looking for a stranded bus.
After picking Anaconda up, she told us some stuff in the car.. So, somehow we decided that we don't really want to study for tomorrow's OS midterm and decided to go out somewhere.
I SMSed Asha and she wanted to tag along!! So after we had our shower.. (err.. at 12 something!) Me and Bahijah picked Anaconda up at HB4 and kidnapped Ana along the way! ekkeke! Then picked Asha in Cyberia.. and somehow.. tersampai lak kat Lotus @ Bangsar!! HAHAHAH!! Makanmakanmakan... :)) Siap ade live band jalan from table to table tuuuh! ekekke! It was a nice feeling, taau! Hanging out with the ones that matters to you.. :)
So!! Dekat kul 3 camtu baruuu laa sampai balek Cyberjaya.. :D
Now I REALLY have to get my sleep.. got OS tutorial in the morning at 8!! Nak siapkan photography laiee... hadohh~!
btw.. Bahijah and Asha are sleeping in my room right now.. :) Thanks you two.. Tengok korang ade berdekatan.. sangat sukaaa! Even though you guys were already asleep...... :)
Gudnite my friends... Thank you for the wonderful experiences you've all brought me!
oh.. Photos will be up umm.. later!

Currently listening to Rest Of My Life by Flop Poppy

Monday, October 20, 2003

very bad mood!

bongok bongok bongokkkk!!
i've typed soooo many stuff just now.. all about my day... and when i clicked the post&publish button, it got lost!! bongok nyer connection!! bongok nyer blogger!! bongok nyer mmu!!!
i'm cursing like shit, so i'm not really the person you'd want to meet right now..
langsung bukan calon isteri, okaay!
buzz off!!
nak tido sebab kalo tak, wanie nak mengamuk!!


been spending the night looking for Flop Poppy's song, Rest Of My Life lyrics..
(tried typing to what I hear.. but it wasn't clear enough so I just HAD to search through the net for it!)
so.. I've typed all sorts of things on the search bar;
" flop poppy rest of my life"
"lyrics flop poppy"
"flop poppy malaysia rest of my life"
"english flop poppy"
bluerghhh.. kept jumbling all sorts of words.. and what did I found?? My own website!!! HAHAHHA!! stupid...
The search results bolded my post on that GEMA day when I talked on what Flop Poppy sang in their performance. ARGHHHH!! Sangat tension!
I really want the lyrics!! Been searching since yesterday and all I get is a headspin!! +_+

tudoodoo daadaa~~

Sunday, October 19, 2003

something that never started can never end.. :)

'Til I Get Over You
Michelle Branch

Every time I feel alone
I can blame it on you
And I do, oh

You got me like a loaded gun
Golden sun and sky so blue
We both know that we want it
But we both know you left me no choice

(chaque fois que tu ton va)
You just bring me down
(je pretend que tu fais bien)
So I'm counting my tears 'til I get over you

Sometimes I watch the world go by
I wonder what it's like
To wake up every single day
Smile on your face
You never tried (You never tried)

We both know
We can't change it
But we both know
We'll just have to face it

(chaque fois que tu ton va)
You just bring me down
(je pretend que tu fais bien)
So I'm counting my tears 'til I get over you

If only I could give you up
But would I want to let you off this soapbox, baby?
We both know that we want it
But we both know you left me no choice

(chaque fois que tu ton va)
You just bring me down
(je pretend que tu fais bien)
So I'm counting my tears 'til I get over you

We both know that I'm not over you
I'm not over you..


heehee~ While I was showering just now, (ehee~ terlupa tadi blom mandi laie.. ekkee!) I wondered to myself if I should go to tomorrow's OS lecture.. (I've only been to the first two lectures!)
And then somehow I remembered how I loved skipping my classes while at school.. :D
Nak kate nakal sangat, takde laa.. Tapi banyak sangat kelentong sebenanye.. ehee~
Time Form 2, skolah petang.. Suka cakap kat cekgu nak gi surau, semayang. But it was only half right.. Selalu, jalan gi surau.. basuh basuh muka.. then duduk borak borak ngan orang. Ingatkan diorang smer gi semayang, sedangkan kite sendiri tak!! ekekek! If the Form Ones were having their Physical Edu, me and my friends would call up the ones we knew to hang around with us. ekkeke! Jahat ke? At least I thought I was saving them from something, anyways! :D (perasan muliaaa..) Bile time kitorang PE lak, kitorang kaco bebudak Form 1 yang nak semayang! ekekke! Beshnyer bila ingat balek...
Dah masuk sesi pagi takleh nak guna alasan semayang laie.. :( But started in Form 3, I was separated from my two bestest friends, and I would usually go see their class everytime my teacher was not in. Kalo diorang takde cekgu gak, nak ajak keliling skolah! :D ehee~ Suka jalan jalan tengok kelas seniors..
Time rehat kekadang pegi kat padang.. Biar jalan jauh so masok kelas lambat! AHAHHA!!
Tapi Wanie laie suka ponteng kelas officially laa.. Takyah pikir alasan.. laiepon.. menipu kan tak elok! ehee! I'd usually sign up for stuff like perbarisan and such. Membusykan diri so takde mase untuk duk kat kelas.. (which caused me a BAD PMR and SPM result! ahahha!!) But there's nothing to regret about that.. I had fun most of the time!! :))
Main main banyak sangat... Sangat hepi time tu! Surrounded by real cool people that you can really call as friends! :)
Muz, Hanis, Yat~!!! Rindu gile kat korang!!!! :((

bahijah (1:17:10 AM): wanie, nak lepak putra tak?

bak.. bj.. and ashahahhhaa~!
Kinda just got back from a hang out with Bahijah, Anaconda, Asha, and Bak (some new guy friend) :)
I don't know.. this is such a good day! I mean.. yesterday up til now.. :D Realized how I REALLY have the friends that I can count on. They may not be there EVERYTIME I need them, but they usually are.. hehheh! You guys are the best!!
Takde buat ape sangat kat Putra tadik. Just took some silly pictures on the bridge. O yeah, new pictures uploaded, yaa! :D
Kinda imagining some stuff right now. Gotta stop, though.. It's eating me alive.. huhhuu~

Anyways.. this conversation is making my day wonderful for the moment..

anaconda (4:34:30 AM): u wanna know something?
wanie (4:34:34 AM): yepp
wanie (4:34:35 AM): ape dia?
anaconda (4:34:37 AM): erm..
anaconda (4:34:40 AM): anna sgt2 eppy
anaconda (4:34:40 AM): :D
wanie (4:34:44 AM): yee?
anaconda (4:34:46 AM): bile ngan korang
anaconda (4:34:47 AM): a`a
wanie (4:34:53 AM): baguslahh!
wanie (4:35:00 AM): kite lepak slalu2 kaay!

heehee~ Life seem to MATTER to me when people say things like this.. Bila terasa cam.. diri ni tak membawa apa apa kesan pada sekeliling. Bertanya pada diri sendiri.. kenapa kite ade kat sini... And orang berkata sesuatu yang macam tu.. membuatkan life matters.. Made you matters to others.. That your existance is not a waste after all.. :D
Sangat sukaaa ngan my friends!! Though someone once said to me that I shouldn't depend on them.. I just can't help it! The ones yang close to me.. sangat dear to my heart and it's impossible for me not to depend on them. Sebenanye bukanlaa 'depend' pon.. Tapi... sangat sangat TRUST! :D Biarlah I'll get hurt in the end.. at least I get to keep this moment in a piece of my memory..
Bahijah, love ya'! Hope you'll always be around for me to tell my heart out! Thanks for hearing me out, thanks for putting up with me.. heehee~ I'll be here when you need me, okie! :-*
Okaylaah~ Sangat mengantuk sebenanye!!! huhuuu~

I REALLY need to stop talking to myself....

Saturday, October 18, 2003

Keluar ajeeee~

ahahha~! muka setengah je.. biol nye bahijah amek gamba.. ekkeek!menikmati light trail la kununnye..
Got to sleep at 4am.. woke up at 11.. got my shower at 12.. Went out with Bahijah, Anaconda, Asha and Dzayed at 1pm.
ehee~ We went to Pertama Complex since Asha wanted to buy some gadget for our Photography assignment. But we ended up with going to Sungai Wang after lunch anyways..
Jalan jalan.. pusing pusing.. I don't know what was running through my friends' minds.. but in mine.. I was imagining myself knocking on my own head.. I forgot about something that I should've done the day before.. huhuu~ But what's the point of regretting kan? Dah lepas.. biarkan ajelahh~
Sedar sedar dah 5:30pm so we decided to get to the car and see around for a good spot to do the light trail :)
Drive punya drive.. ended up taking pictures of highway... mane ntah ni.. Tak tau ape namenye.. ekekke! But the spot was kinda nice! Tak tau laa kan ape Che Mat will say, but I like it anyways! huhh~!!
Then.. sempat main amek gamba memacam with Bahijah's digicam! ehee~ Pictures that were taken will be uploaded somewhere tomorrow, okie! :D

Friday, October 17, 2003


maria tunku sabri: jemput makan~Went out at around 6pm with the gurls (Asha and BJ) today..
Went around to get a 'good' light trail of the reshoot for Photography. uhuu~
But since it was so hard, getting a spot to park the car at a 'safe' place.. we end up NOT getting any pictures taken on the road.. hummphh! But BJ did get this guy in a shop to help us out for the light trail.. I wonder if it'll look okay.. :D
Anyways.. practically, we only end up hanging about it Hartamas. Biol kah? ekekke!
Thanks Iqbal!! Kasik lagu yang dicari cari.. heehee~!
And o yeahh.. Gamba of my friends dah adeee! The page is in Tripod though.. so just bear with the banners okie! Sorry~ :)

Currently listening to Total Eclipse Of The Heart by Bonnie Tyler


terase cam zaman skolah balek..
minat orang, and orang tu tau.. bezanye dengan sekarang, orang yang dulu tu perasan best.. and yang sekarang ni mungkin mmg best. hahahha!!
kelaka bila ingat balek dulu. punyaaalah lama minat mamat tu, skali dia pegi perasan lebih lebih.. sedap wanie kutuk dia kat orang! hohoho! sape suhh gi rendahkan my harga diri. bodo punye budak! perasan nak mamposs! hahahha!! (maseh terasa marah bile ingat balek!) bluekk bluekk!! sejak aritu wanie dah tak minat langsung kat bebudak yang "pretty boy" nih! harap muka je lawa tapi langsung menyampahkan.. bluerghh!!
second time wanie minat orang gile punye lama.. humm.. bape lama? ade laa setahun lebih! ahahha!! by the time dah dapat.. jadi boring plak.. hummm.. sebenanye hati ni sangat pelik kan?
bila tak dapat.. rase nak sangat. bile dah dapat.. rase nak buang pulak.. :)
so sekarang pula macam mane? rasenye wanie tak nak biarkan diri ni sampai suka sangat.. maka... marilah kita memboringkan diri~~ yosh!!

While C likes no one...

macam drama swasta.. hahhaa~! It's been a while since I write a story.. nanti laah~ Rasa cam nak write something tapi masih fikirkan endingnye.. ekekke!
Rambut harini gugur exceptionally banyak. Apsal aaA?? Botak la camnieee!!!

Anyways!! Lagu ini ditujukan khas untuk someone yang tak mungkin sedang membaca nie.. but still, I'm not telling! hehhe~
But if he is reading this.. I know you'll be fine.. so byebye

Jika Kau Bercinta Lagi; Flop Poppy
Jika kau bercinta lagi
cintalah sesungguhnya
Jika kau bercinta lagi
jagalah kau hatinya

Engkau yang memilihnya
tanpa memikirkan tentang diriku
Kini ku hanya dapat berdoa
agar berbahagia kau disampingnya

Jika kau bercinta lagi
cintalah sesungguhnya
Jika kau bercinta lagi
jagalah kau hatinya

Aku tak dapat menghalang
engkau punya kemahuan sendiri
Biarku hidup hanya mengenang
peristiwa yang tak dapat kulupa

Kini aku hanya dapat berdoa
agar berbahagia kau disampingnya
Selamat tinggal
ku mengundurkan diri
Aku mengundurkan diri

He's walking towards me while I run to the opposite direction..

ehee~ "edited" the line Dar once put for his Y! status message which was: "He's walking towards you while I'm just standing still". :) Line yang agak menarik.

Currently leading a.. sad moment.
Terase didesak untuk membuat keputusan yang Wanie sangat sangat cuba elakkan. Terasa macam.. baru buat satu kesilapan yang besar. Terasa tak boleh nak berpatah balik. The only way I am going now is forwards, but I am not ready for it and took a rest.. stopped. But I've been resting too long and now I'm blocking the path and I need to make way for the ones that chose to move forwards.
Kenape Wanie asyik terasa Wanie yang salah?
Was I leading you on? I thought I was only being myself.. getting to know people as I always do.. as I always been.. Tapi kenape jadi macam ni? Wanie tak nak semua ni, tapi kenapa ini yang Wanie dapat??
Memang Wanie ke yang patut disalahkan?
I really don't know what I did.. Was I wrong??? I wish I was in a different shoe right now so I can see ME from another perspective. Was I wrong??
Pusing pusing dalam kepala.. Mungkin memang Wanie yang salah. Kan lagi baik kalau Wanie sorang saje yang merasa..
How can I make up for this guilt I am feeling..? How can I be honest when you've never been truly honest with me? How can I confess when you never confessed to me? Salah Wanie juge ke?
Banyak kali Wanie cuba nak fikirkan... and lupakan... And seems that I can't do any of them!
If memories are so beautiful.. then why am I hurting inside?
Sorry.. memang Wanie silap.. Tak sengaja Wanie expect yang lain daripada yang sepatutnya. Wanie silap.. Sorry...
Mintak maaf sangat sangat.... Kalau boleh, Wanie nak tarik balek semua benda yang Wanie pernah cakap so semua ni boleh dielakkan. Sorry.. Wanie betul-betul mintak maaf.. Sorry.......

{ breaking down }

Thursday, October 16, 2003

Sangaaaaap! ngap ngap! nyumnyum~~

Quite a boring day..
Went for class at 10.. had to some quiz about UNIX.. couldn't answer half of it!! SANGAT TAK SUKA!
Later in the afternoon, went to Asha's house in Cyberia, though. After BJ had her lunch at Nasi Ayam Malaysia.. :) I was so sleepy that I practically came to her house just to sleep!! ekkeke! The two played some games while I was asleep, I think.
Woken up by Sheeya's call.. and minutes afterwards she dropped by!! :)
Missing you gurls already~!

Since Sheeya was fasting, we all went to Malee around 6:50pm for dinner. Sheeya told some interesting stories during the day's hang-out. Maybe I'll tell some later..
Not really in a mood for anything.. :)

Breathe In; Frou Frou
I - read you - and god I'm good at it - I'm so spot on
chord - shapes in air - go press that dissonance - if you dare
and you - breathing in - finesse an innocent
from her partying

and I'm high enough from all the waiting
to ride a wave on your inhaling
and I'm high enough from all the waiting
to ride a wave on your inhaling
cause I love you no?
can't help but love, you know...

what - part of no - don't you understand - I've told you before
to just get - off my case - this isn't happening - stop this now
and I - where was I? - I have to be somewhere
now where did I put it?

and I'm high enough from all the waiting
to ride a wave on your inhaling
and I'm high enough from all the waiting
to ride a wave on your inhaling
cause I love you no?
can't help but love you, no...

is this it - is this it - is this it?

yes - hello we're back - and we're taking calls
now what was the question?

and I'm high enough from all the waiting
to ride a wave on your inhaling
and I'm high enough from all the waiting
to ride a wave on your inhaling
cause I love you no?
can't help but love you, no...

[ this post was edited at 2:05am OCT 17 ]

Wednesday, October 15, 2003

{ just because.. }

Tiring day! Weeeeeee~
Woke up early despite getting to bed late last night. Had to do the presentation for Photography.. only to get REJECTED!! ahahahha~!! Sebenanye rase sedikit depressed.. (macam nak termuntah sikit..) But right after the class, me, BJ and Anaconda headed to IOI and played bowling! I actually won!!
ehee~ that's me, going to drop the ball,,
Punyelah lama tak main.. Tapi agak pathetic laa.. I scored only 73, while Anaconda 69 and BJ 44! Klakaaa~
bahijah got upset 'coz her ball was about to go in the gutter!
And then BJ was bugged by some rempits over there.. So we decided to go someplace else and since BJ was driving, she decided to go to Mid Valley.
Kegilaan bebudak tu these days - Asam Laksa Penang!! Tak sudah sudah nak makan kat situuuu!!
and this is anaconda!!
Oh Asha..
Hidup kurus tonjang~!!
ekkeke!! Eyh, thanks Asha! For saving me in the afternoon. ekkeke!! I was fiddling my room keys and just as if on cue, it spun and dropped.... right into a drain hole! HAHHAHA!! Pastu paling pelik, Wanie cam tergamam sekejap.. Analyze dalam kepala - "bodohnye sayee~~" And tak sempat nak gerak, Asha suh Wanie pegang envelope dia and gi amekken (masuk lubang tuu!! Angkat besi sumer.. ekkeke!!) Kasihan my teddy key holder.. Tak basuh laie ni...
Missing you loads Anabyzura!! :x
BJ, love ya' too!!!

BJ taught me how to eat sushi. (of course la kaan, pick 'em up with your hand, open your mouth and stuck the sushi in, and start munching!) What I really meant was that she let me share her sushi 'coz I never tried 'em. She was pretty excited about that.. I really can't understand why. HAHHAA~ Ijah pelik!! :p
Keluar tadi agak kelakar.. and interesting. The three of us kept getting into some sort of serious conversations yang sangat besh!!
Okehh.. halfway before we arrived in MMU, Hitz were playing Faint by Linkin Park and Anaconda kept moaning. (she adores the band horribly but unable to spend for a ticket 'coz of the building up assignments!) So BJ started to announce their 'arrival' to the stage (as if we were seeing their show!).. and so we all screamed in the car. It was obviously lame, but kinda helps since we need to release the tension. ekekke!!
Kepada encik Shahnon.. adohaai~! Sronot lah kamu yaaa!! (he got to see Linkin Park seihh~!!) Berlagak!! ekkekeke!
You might read more on how the Linkin Park night went @here!
So anyways! I've been spending the rest of the night glued to my chair with my eyes stuck on the screen. ehee~ Malam ni rase lain sket! :)
shahnon: i know you`ll love this one

In your eyes I see a darkness that torments you
and in your head where it dwells.
I'd give you my hand if you'd reach out and grab it,
Lets walk away from this hell.

~*Into The Dark by The Juliana Theory

[ this post was edited at 12:41pm OCT 16 ]


hahahha!! Look at the time!! And I kinda JUST got back to my room since like.. 7 o'clock!
The day started with operating systems' class at 8. Right after that we (me and Asha) tagged BJ and Anaconda (ekekke!!) to Bakway near LimKokWing to get their films developed and then to YS to print them out! While waiting (for the film), the four of us went to One Utama and looked around. I'm officially stating here that I truly love shops like Wondermilk and Folio! Mind you.. I 'accidentally' bought some useless things in Wondermilk. ekkeke! Just can't help myself! Another thing about those shops I mentioned, they both sell Lomography cameras! And I think that's really neat!!
Got back to MMU at about.. 5? So I managed to work on the site's template for a while.. but if there's any problem with those pic.. DO TELL! okie?
So at 7 something, me and the girls then went to GEMA!! The errr.. Malay languange concert/competition sort of! ekekke! It was LOADS of fun!! Why?? 'Coz good looking guys are around seihhh!! ekkeke!! Started off with that Hussein guy from Tenggara Performance Club! He's such a GREAT singer!! SANGAT! SANGAT! SANGAT!!! I was motionless for half of the Blues Kambing!! (neat~ talked about cactus, huh!). HAVING TO SEE SOME GUYS THAT CAN REALLY SING RIGHT IN FRONT OF YOUR FACE IS REALLY REALLY NEAT!!!! They all had such great voices!!! Tapi ade laa gak yang sumbang sumbing.. those 2 new groups.. they can't really harmonize perfectly, but all in all.. they're all REALLY cool!!
The performances by students weren't bad as well! Some of them were really nice!! Like Bagus Bangat which sang Gigi's song.. I think they were awesome!! So they DESERVED to win!!
Bagus Bangat.. they've got a girl from Melaka for their drummer!
And those two girls that won.. they were okay, but maaan!! Nyaringnyer bunyikk!! Tak tahan denga diorang!!! But they were okaaay.. :) And then.. O yeah, I SHOULD mention 'bout JobbersScrobbers (hope I spelled this right!) eh? After all.. I do know the 'band'! ekekke!! Funny really.. seeing someone in your same class.. singing on stage. Eh, lagu korang sangat besh!! Tapi menyanyi agak terabur.. harap maaf~ And I never knew Azarul can sing!! Besh weihhh~!!! Part yang dia nyanyi tu cam sangat... 'special'. ekkekek!! And the guitars.. (Azarul la yang paling menyerlah tapinye..) BESH!! Tapi Dar yang start lagu kan? kaaan? GUITARS ARE THE COOLEST!!
Anyways anywaaaays!! While waiting for the results.. guess who was performing...
FLOP POPPY!! :x :x
They are the coolest!! (rase cam poyo gile guna banyak sangat word 'cool'!! ahahha!!) They started with Keliru, and then Andy sung our (me, Asha and BJ) favorite Flop Poppy song - Rest Of My Life!!! We were screaming very much like idiots if you must ask. Mata pon macam nak berair!! AHAHHAHA!! But we really really love that song!! So there's this part when the chorus ended and they were just playing the instruments, me and Asha screamed like crazy (mind you, we were the only ones at that moment!!) and guess what? Guess what???
Andy and the bassist looked our way!!!
It was SO neat!! AHAHHAHA!! We were like.. SooOoOoOoO starstruck!! ekkeeke!!!
So anyways, then they performed Jika Kau Bercinta Lagi, Aku Dan Kamu and Cinta!! They were REALLY NEATTTT!!! And Andy's daughter strongly reminds me of Kisa Souma of Fruits Basket! ekekke!!
okaay.. Then went to Malee to get our late late dinner.. huhuuu~
dzayed & asha!
Lama seihh~!! ekkeke!! So proud of you guys!! :)) aaandd...
19 oledi ya~! ehee! Have a happy year ahead Fina!
So tired!! And I haven't started on the presentation for assignment yett!! Adohh~! Esok bangun pagi la kot! Cam patut tido... Dahlaa blek gelap!! hohoho..

This is such a tiring/fun daayy!! weeee~!

Monday, October 13, 2003


I guess I am weak...
Mentally instable again.. Seems like this will never end.. will it?
Still trying to search something that is never certain to me.
Why do I always feel like I'm doomed, somehow?

Teh tarik.. teh tarik.. lalalalalaaa~

ekekke~! Silly little song! It kept playing in TESCO Damansara when I went there yesterday afternoon and it got me and Dida crazy! What sort of crazy? Well, so it happens that we can't stop singing the song and even my dad had to tell us off! (which only worked for only half a second!) ekkeke!! Poor Papa and Mama had to listen to us all the way of the car ride. Honestly.. the song was ghostly!!
Okay peeps, look at the date right now and remember.. 2 months away from my birthday~!! I honestly don't know why I'm making such a big fuss over it! ekkeke! So anyways! You have exactly two months to start saving up so you can get me something! AHAHHAHA!! If you're wondering what you should get me.. A guitar would be nice! AHAHHAHA!! I mean, if at least I get two guitars, I could probably 'sacrifice' one and see what it feels to actually smash one like in those 'rock-ish' video clips! That ought to be nice! AHHAHAHA!! If not, humm.. a set of Tarot Card would be nice too! AHAHHAHA!! Been talking and yapping about getting it but STILL, I haven't got it! But if you do get me those.. then you're kinda in this 'plot' of some sort of syirik thing laa! AHAHHAHA!! (if you believed in those cards, you will!~) O well.. if not, you can still get me a teddy bear! ekkeke! Can't believe that after all these years, I still dig those! huhuu~ My old one needs replacing! ekekke! Oh, BJ and Ana.. you still remember my special request didn't you? ekkeke!! Start working!! AHAHHAHA!!
I think I may have been infected with Ayame's craziness.. ehee~
Okay.. being at home for the weekend actually made me.. A bit relaxed! For a moment I was relieved from a some sort of a 'depression' air. I can actually think and feel beyond those phase. Alhamdulillah~ Got my mind set all over again. And I'm truthfully relieved! But now I'm back here again.. So I'm kinda scared if I'll ever drop off to that 'place' again. It's mind-boggling how I can see things.. in a such heart-breaking scene.. when everything was really.. fine. Humm.. kinda hard to explain!
Okaylaaah~ I'm getting drowsy by the minute! Need the rest that I should've get since the afternoon. Have a great week ahead, people!
Currently listening to Lilitan Asmara by Misha Omar (really like her!)

Teh tarik.. teh tarik.. hummhumhumhummhummm~

Friday, October 10, 2003

. . .

If You Only Knew; Gil feat. Moffatts
I'd give you everything, anything
If you'd be mine
I'd give the starts above, an' all my love
How can you be so blind, so blind
I'm going out of my mind
All the time for you, yes it's true

If you only knew that I'm crazy for you
Then you'd understand
If I only knew what you're going through
Then I'd understand

Now I know that I have no chance
Oh, to make you mine
But if I owned the world, you would be my girl
How can you be so blind, so blind
I'm going out of my mind
All the time for you, yes it's true

If you only knew that I'm crazy for you
Then you'd understand
If I only knew what you're going through
Then I'd understand

How can you be so blind, so blind
I'm going out of my mind all the time for you
Yes it's true...

If you only knew that I'm crazy for you
Then you'd understand
If I only knew what you're going through
Then I'd understand

I am absolutely nothing!!
- end of story -

Feelin' The Same Way; Norah Jones

The sun just slipped its note below my door
And I can't hide beneath my sheets
I've read the words before so now I know
The time has come again for me

And I'm feelin' the same way all over again
Feelin' the same way all over again
Singin' the same lines all over again
No matter how much I pretend

Another day that I can't find my head
My feet don't look like they're my own
I'll try and find the floor below to stand
And I hope I reach it once again

And I'm feelin' the same way all over again
Feelin' the same way all over again
Singin' the same lines all over again
No matter how much I pretend

So many times I wonder where I've gone
And how I found my way back in
I look around awhile for something lost
Maybe I'll find it in the end

And I'm feelin' the same way all over again
Feelin' the same way all over again
Singin' the same lines all over again
No matter how much I pretend

*not really into Jazz, but song is an exception since it's kinda upbeat than the other Norah Jones' songs.. and the lyrics is interesting too!

Su-Mi and Su-Yong

Tale Of Two Sisters
IT WAS TOTALLY COOL!! You peeps HAVE to see it! Me, BJ, Asha and Dzayed got to see the first show at 9:15, and I have to say, IT WAS SO NEAT!! I guess we really enjoyed the story-line and the cinematography. Well, nothing's really new, but they did quite a good job for a horror movie. The cinema was kinda fun, really! It became some sort of a wild ride, somehow. Girls were screaming.. and a moment later the whole room laughed. ekkeke! (laughed at the ones who screamed earlier) It was honestly tiring.. watching the film. It started off slow.. so your head will get busy wondering when the 'action' will start, but when it did.. you'll have fun! At least I did! (the good seats might have helped!) :D Not gonna tell you what's the storyline.. it'll spoil the whole thing! weeeeeeee~
Thanks Dzayed~!!! Kamu sungguh cool! You're one of the few real cool people that I've met!! HAHHAA~
Been getting crazy over Ayame Souma right now. I think he's fantastic!! His character with Shigure is just fantastic!! AHHAHAA~ ©Ayame
Been trying to do that multiple exposure for photography but I think it'll turn out crappy! SUSAH SEIHH!! But it's nice to try new things out. I mean, Papa never taught me about those stuff. Papa has always been into 'events' photography, so I can see why he got pretty enthusiastic to help me out. :D
O yeah, my depression period has passed for the moment, I guess.. Feeling a lil' bit lighter today.. :) Maybe 'coz I have GREAT friends to thank for. Asha, Bahijah, Ana!! You guys are the best!! So glad that I've come to know you..

Nemui desu! "Ja~ byebye!" ©Ayame!

Thursday, October 09, 2003


December 12th ~ December 21st = Maroon
You are intelligent, and know what's right.
You like to make things go your way, which can sometimes cause trouble for not thinking about other people's feelings. But you be patient when it comes to love..Once you get a hold of the right person, it's hard for you to find a better love.
(Iye ke nihh??)
I wonder why is it everyone on @Friendster is posting up those forwards on birthdates..
DECEMBER: Loyal and generous. Patriotic. Active in games and interactions. Impatient and hasty. Ambitious. Influential in organizations. Fun to be with. Loves to socialize. Loves praises. Loves attention. Loves to be loved. Honest and trustworthy. Not pretending. Short tempered. Changing personality. Not egoistic. Take high pride in oneself. Hates restrictions. Loves to joke. Good sense of humor. Logical

Sementara itu, marilah kita menghayati lagu ini~~~ ekkeke! Kinda like this song..
Why Don't You And I; Santana & Chad Kroeger
Since the moment I spotted you,
Like walking around with little wings on my shoes,
My stomach's filled with the butterflies,
Ooh, and it's all right,
Bouncing round from cloud to cloud,
I'd got the feeling like I'm never gonna come down,
If I'd said I didn't like it then you'd know I lied,

Everytime I try to talk to you,
I get tongue-tied,
It turns out that everything I say to you,
Comes out wrong and never comes out right.

So I'll say why don't you and I,
Get together and take on the world and be together forever,
Heads we will, Tails we'll try again,
So I'll say why don't you and I,
Hold each other and fly to the moon and straight on to heaven,
Cause without you they're never gonna let me in.

When's this fever going to break?
I think I've handled more than any man can take,
I'm like a love-sick puppy chasing you around,
Ooh, and it's all right,
Bouncing round from cloud to cloud,
I got the feeling like I'm never gonna come down,
If I'd said I didn't like it then you'd know I lied.

Everytime I try to talk to you,
I get tongue-tied,
It turns out that everything I say to you,
Comes out wrong and never comes out right.

So I'll say why don't you and I,
Get together and take on the world and be together forever,
Heads we will, Tails we'll try again,
So I'll say why don't you and I,
Get together and fly to the moon and straight on to heaven,
Cause without you they're never gonna let me in.

Slowly I begin to realize,
This is never going to end
Right about the same time you walk by,
And I say 'Oh here we go again',

Everytime I try to talk to you,
I get tongue-tied,
It turns out that everything I say to you,
Comes out wrong and never comes out right.

So I'll say why don't you and I,
Get together and take on the world and be together forever,
Heads we will, Tails we'll try again,
So I'll say why don't you and I,
Get together and fly to the moon and straight on to heaven,
Cause without you they're never gonna let me in.

Memanjakan atau dimanjakan?

Spent the every cent Papa have given me last Friday..
Borosnye saye....
Called up Papa last night since I really needed money or I'll starve 'til I get home on Friday!! I said something like, maybe he could get some money into my account or something, and he said okay! But, at 7 something this morning, he asked if it was okay if he come by in the morning. Hoe? So he's coming..
Honestly, I DO realize how a burden I am to everyone in the family, and I'm trying my best not to use my "I'm-young-and-stupid-so-please-help-me-or-I'll-be-dead" ability when I asked the money. So was it easier for Papa to come over like that? It's nice to see him, but honestly.. I'm going home tomorrow and he'll have to pick me up tomorrow! So he'll have to drive back here again.. just the day after today!! So.. Wanie ni memanjakan diri ke.. Diri Wanie ni dimanjakan?
Ablen, about the thing you said.. Honestly I was a bit angry about it.. I guess I was angry to myself for being so stupid for letting Fariz to have the picture. But never mind.. I don't have the same hair-do as I did back then, so why worry? Kalau Wanie botak kat bawah tudung sekarang ni pun, bukannye korang tahu~!
Last night I was crying myself to sleep. Why? HEADACHE!! Stupid.. Headache and flu doesn't really mix well. As a matter of fact, they have the worst mix! I can't stand the fact that I keep on thinking about stupid matters any longer. Why the heck should I think about myself? Honestly.. the more I think about how I am feeling, the more screwed I'd become! The problem to it, is that I do know how I feel.. I just don't understand why I'm feeling it when I don't need it! Urghhh!! Blablablaaa~~
Having no mood to do anything right now. So excuse me..

Wednesday, October 08, 2003

The bright light amongst the blinding darkness...


Kore mitte~ Kirei na, sono tsukiwa.. Hontoni daisuki.. demo.....
Having a pretty bad day. Depression with no reason at all!

~*You're A God; Vertical Horizon
Cause you're a god, and I am not
And I just thought that you would know
You're a god, and I am not
And I just thought I'd let you go...

Pardon me for stepping away... I am getting afraid..


Been listening to this since yesterday;

Walau jauh akan kugegas berlari
Walau tinggi bisa kuterbang di langit
Walau sedalam mana akan kuselami
Kerana cinta sedalam itu mekar
Bila ku dekat padamu

~*by Yusry; Dekat Padamu

"I don't want to be here when you get back.. 'coz I'm afraid that you won't be there when I get there.."

. . .

Others see you as sensible, cautious, careful and practical. They see you as clever, gifted, or talented, but modest. Not a person who makes friends too quickly or easily, but someone who's extremely loyal to friends you do make and who expect the same loyalty in return. Those who really get to know you realize it takes a lot to shake your trust in your friends, but equally that it takes you a long time to get over it, if that trust is ever broken.

I think that's kinda true.. Did it from those stuff on the bulletin board @Friendster. ehee~ Friendster is getting freaaaaky!! Getting plenty of messages since I changed my pic! ahahha!! Maaan~ everyone is just into looks these days, aren't they??? (ahahha!! I think I just kinda make the impression that I look BETTER without my tudung on~!) But that pic was edited with Photoshop!! MENGARUT!!
Flu report: umm.. Is it getting any better? I think not.. It was horrible in the morning, but at this moment, it's kinda okaay. Getting myself loads of vitamin C this couple of days.. the SUNKIST Apple Juice has been some sort of a household item lately. ehee~! Been spending some extra money. uhuuu~ :(
My Design got rejected for a couple of minutes.. ehee~ The lecturer got to peel of the mounting I did, (which was very poor!!) so he told me to glue it again. And when I submitted it for the second time, he accepted it after commenting on some other stuff. Bluerghhh~ I think I'm kinda bad at presenting my work.. uhuu~ :(
Today I introduced Fruits Basket to Bahijah and Asha!! And they enjoyed it!! Paling besh, it made a real impact on them!! They actually cried to Hatori's past just as I did when I first saw the episode!! AHAHHA!! It was fun & funny watching the two.. ekkeke!!
Okay, Kak Mai said that she heard this in a ceramah agama.. It is certain that you like a person when you miss them and got jealous when seeing them with someone else... You peeps judge if it's true.. :D
Anyways, honestly I'm kinda tired now.. Just did my laundry.. ehee~

{ yeyyeyyy~!! }

Monday, October 06, 2003

Psycho-analyze me..

Quite a horrible day..
I kinda thought that I could've gone into a row with one of my good friends in the afternoon. It would be horrible.. but somehow I managed to keep myself down, and only end up with getting 'merajuk' with her. Managed to get a headache from doing that, though.. uhuu~ Eyy pompuan, you have such a horrible sense of humor, but thank God that you're usually nice! ekkeke!! :p Pening pening~~
Humm.. flu report: it's not coming down yet. And it gets most terrible right after I wake up from my sleep and when it just gets dark outside.. :( Oh, and when I talk so much as well! Benci betul, nak berbual panjang pon susah.. my nose would clog up and I'd end up panting for breath! ekekke!! (biol~)
Today is the second night in a row Papa called just to check on me. ehee~ Am I sensing that he's missing me??? ekkeke!! After all, I only saw him for a bout 20 minutes in the last 7 days! :)) I actually survived the weekend in MMU! Can't believe that it wasn't SO bad at all. Don't misunderstood me, it WAS bad.. just not SO bad.. :D Not really sure if I'll be going back this coming weekend.. Humm.. got another 4 days to think about it.. ehee~ Papa doesn't sound well on the phone, though.. Sounds like he's having a flu as well. Eh Papa, kite selsema sama-sama ekk? ekekke! :p Kinda missed home, honestly. 'Coz I heard Dida's voice in the background and somehow I missed shouting around the house with her. ehee~ Ain't that weird? :D Baru seminggu daaa~
Okay, been printing out my Design work.. thank God that the ink's not causing me any trouble.. ehee~ Now I can work with ease!
Been spending the day with Asha and BJ.. agak kelakar, really! First we went to Asha's house and hung out for a while. Then Alitt called BJ to meet her up. So when she got back, we headed to Putrajaya with Dzayed's car! BJ was behind the wheels and gosh!! She was horrifying, driving a manual car!! ekkeke!! But with Asha's guidance (mind you, Asha doesn't have a license while BJ does!) BJ got better and better with the car.. ehee~ Kinda fun.. :)
Still no network on my computer, I really wonder why.. But somehow it doesn't bother me much. 'Coz some days ago someone made me kinda upset and I don't feel like communicating with 'em anytime soon. Bluerghh~! Such a complicated feeling I have inside here.. Wish things were easier.. By the way, Thanks Kak Mai for letting me use your pc for a while! :)
Well, going back to do my assignments then..

head aches

169.254.203 yadda yaddaaa~

Stupid network!!
Just before I got back from a day's out with Asha and Dzayed, the electricity was off (on the fan's side)! So demm hot, but heyy! My computer is still working!!... NOT!! Well, electricity DOES runs through it.. but no network!! Arrghhh!! And I was so enthusiastic about doing my Design work! Atoiii~©asha&dzayed Thanks you two! Managed to catch a glimpse of those powerboats at the Err.. it goes something like that! Tried to do 'panning'. Hope some of it went right! huhuuu~ Kinda worried of my super-impose/multiple exposures, really! Since I'm using a fully-manual camera (loving it!!) it is possible to get the frames overlapped! huhuu~ (happened oledi.. when I tested it somewhere last week..) :( Atoii~© So worried!!
O yeah, did I mention that I'm on Kak Mai's pc? Well, so it happens, that the whole block is NOT connected with the network BUT Kak Mai's and Kak Siti's!! Isn't that just unfair?!! Huwaaaaaaa!! I want network on my pc too~!! :(
Humm.. better get back to sleep. Still down with the flu and a Chipsmore-style fever. "Kejap ada, kejap takde~"

Flop Poppy - Rest Of My Life
Can't wait 'til 3rd sem, ya Asha!! Hope we'll get through this semester just fine.. :D

Sunday, October 05, 2003

KAK MAI PLAYERRR!!! ekekkeke~!!

Kenape kaaan...
When a couple have been together for a long period of time, the guy would start showing his real self (bad traits starts coming out!) and as for the girl, she would hide herself even more.. trying her best to be the perfect girl for the guy. Kenapa? Don't you think it's unfair? Okay, Wanie tahu, kalau lelaki dah get comfortable.. musti laa dia tak kesah kan dengan girl tu? Cuma.. kenapa perempuan tried so hard to make the guy stay to like her. Memang patut, but why hide herself? Patut she gets comfortable and reveal herself and apa apa jadi lepas tu, they would never leave each other's side. Wanie rase, relationship camtu yang akan kekal lama.. The security that your partner won't leave you no matter what you do! :D Kan? ehee~
Anyways, just thought of saying those from my 'observation' on some of my friends.. (which was kinda funny when I think about it!) Been discussing with Kak Mai about relationships and such.. Kinda fun, really! :D But it's late now, and I don't feel like sharing anything much.. :p
Still having the flu, and I've gotta wake up early tomorrow for more assignment-shooting.

Currently listening to Risalah Hati by Dewa

Saturday, October 04, 2003

Wanie, your subconscious mind is most preoccupied with issues around your health


On a conscious level, you might already be aware that something is troubling you, or eating up a lot of time when it comes to your health. But it's also possible that thoughts and feelings about taking care of yourself have been preoccupying your subconscious mind — leaving you with nothing more than a general sense that things just don't feel 100% right in your life though you can't quite figure out why.

You may feel preoccupied with your health, or you may worry that your health could fail you. Perhaps you're afraid of falling ill or just seem to talk about health and wellness all the time.

Whichever feelings hold true, your test results indicate that right now, your subconscious mind is working overtime to resolve the issues confronting you in this area of your life — even if you don't feel aware of it.

However, you can learn easy ways to tap into your subconscious mind and discover the source of the issues that are preoccupying you.

(amazes me with the fact that I AM after all having a flu~)

Friday, October 03, 2003


wanie's status is now "{ i wish i was special }" (10/3/2003 8:38 PM)

majin: trust me u r
majin: ;)
majin: u r special la kecik

Thanks Majin for telling me that! :) Kinda needed that. Been feeling a wee down lately. I don't know if it's because of the flu, or just something else. Kenape Majin slalu teka menda yang sangat dekat dengan benda yang Wanie nak rahsiakan? ekkeke! Takut laa!! Always on the verge of telling you the things that I'd like to let out.. but I know I shouldn't be! heehee~ Memang macam abang! Abang besa yang besh!! :D
I don't think my flu's getting any better. Went to see my parents a while some hours ago.. and they kept asking me why I wanted to stay. And when I told them, Papa agreed with it and seemed a bit upset. Sorry Papa! I am only doing this so you won't be any more upset with me. I hate it when I can't look you at the face. I hate it when I had to keep myself quiet when all I wanted to do is yap and yapp! And I hate seeing you walk pass me and not jumping in front of you asking for a hug! It hurts me so bad! Tapi ego kita agak tinggi kan? When we disagreed on something, we'll always keep quiet with ourselves and won't start to talk until the other does. Wanie lah yang selalu rasa rugi. I wonder if you felt the same. ehee~ Sangat sayang Papaa!! I want you to be immortal!! Boleh ke aaa?
I don't think I can ever love any man like I love my dad!! HAHAHHA!! Sorry bakal-pakwe! You have to be somewhat like my dad for me to feel as attached as I do to my dad! hehee~
Kenape bile Wanie start tak sehat, I'll think loads about this? Selalu sangat kannn?? Tapi cam I can't help it! I miss my dad so much but I don't want him to be upset with me around! Biarlaa upset sebab Wanie takde. Getting him upset while I'm around makes me feel disliked. Takmo takmooo~!! I never want to be disliked by the ones I love.. and I really hope that I'm somebody important to the ones I care the most! :)
Adohh~! I want to get well soon, but I hate pills! Bluekk bluekkk!!!



Down with a flu~!!!! I HATE!!
It could be from Kak Siti, or maybe because I've been getting myself tired every single day since the week started! Wekk~! Lembiknye saye sekarang niee!! Sikit sikit dah nak sakit! Benciii!!!

A hundred days has made me older
since the last time that i saw your pretty face
a thousand lights had made me colder
and i don't think i can look at this the same
and all the miles had seperate
they disapeared now when i'm dreaming of your face

Im here without you baby
but you're still on my lonely mind
i think about you baby
and i dream about you all the time
i'm here without you baby
but youre still with me in my dreams
and tonight, it's only you and me

The miles just keep rollin
as the people either way to say hello
i hear this life is overrated
but i hope that it gets better as we go

I'm here without you baby
but you're still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby
and i dream about you all the time
i'm here without you baby
but you're still with me in my dreams
and tonight girl it's only you and me

Everything I know
and anywhere i go
it gets hard but it won't take away my love
and when the last one falls
when it's all said and done
it gets hard but it won't take away my love

I’m here without you baby
but your still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby
and I dream about you all the time
I’m here without you baby
but your still with me in my dreams
And tonight girl it’s only you and me

I’m here without you baby
but your still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby
and I dream about you all the time
I’m here without you baby
but your still with me in my dreams
but tonight girl it’s only you and me

~*Here Without You; 3 Doors Down


Seusia malam kumenantimu
Dihembus embun aku tersipu
Mungkinkah kau lupa temu janji kita
Kau gembira bersama teman temanmu


What a week..

Okay.. just spend the last three days without an internet connection! How sad can that beee???!!
Having a pretty darned sore throat right now. Maybe sebab menggatal nak try air Epal Asam Boi kot! BJ la niee!! Kate besh!! Tambahkan sakit tekak ni ade laa!! grrRRrRR~!
Been spending the week with BJ and Asha and Dzayed! Banyak btol duit kuar! So it happens that I didn't even missed any meals! Ain't that amazing! So, in a way.. they were pretty good influences.. :D
Monday.. went to take some pictures for our assignment!!
Tuesday.. went on a bus with Ana, Asha, BJ and Sheeya for Mid-Valley just to hang around :x Missing them all already~! :D
Wednesday.. out with Asha, BJ, Dzayed and his friends to Berjaya Times Square. The two girls made fun of me since I was afraid of heights. HAHAHA!! Honestly, the joke is not getting any funnier, so stop making fun of me, you two!!!!! Took a bit more pictures there. Watched the roller-coaster ride. (looked quite interesting, really but the admission fee for the theme park is RM30! And gue tengah sengkek seihhh~)
Thursday.. class 'til 3 (which we actually skipped out of our MDP class) and went to send our slides. First went to YS in ss2 but the guy at the counter was such a hard time! So we went to Bakway instead (near Lim Kok Wing) Dahlaa lebih murah!! Benci YS! bluekkk~!
So now I'm back again.. Kinda hoping something when I got back but it didn;t really happen.. So that proves that we can't really get the things that we wanted at the time we wanted it. huhuu~ What a tiring and kinda sad day it is.. :(
Wokie... need my rest! Hope your camera will be okay, Asha! :) And thanks Dzayed!!
O yeah, still working on the whole layout thing, so just bare with it for the time being! Got so many things caught up in my head these days..


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