boncit!!!!

*insert curse here*

infuriated..
i really hate the fact that i'm an idiot git that can be easily influenced with jealousy!
*curse*
bonciiiiittttt!!!
tak ske tak skeeeeeeeeeeee!!!
tried so hard not to feel anything everytime i see it, but i do!! i'm not supposed to feel anything, really!! not of the place.. i shouldn't be.. no, i shouldn't be..
why am i feeling so angry like this?
bencinyee..
:(

i keep feeling the things i shouldn't be feeling. why do i keep myself wondering as much as this?
let go..
let go.
if others doesn't care.. why should you?
if he doesn't care.. why should i?
:(

aaahhh!! gila!! 8-}

anyways!!
surfed around on saliva.. and now waiting for the song always to finish download. i can't remember how it sounded but i know i liked it.. (supposedly) somehow i wrote the name of song in my scrapbook, so now i'm looking for the song. the lyrics was pretty neat, i think. heehee~

Always by Saliva

I hear, a voice say "Don't be so blind"
It's telling me all these things, that you would probably hide
Am I, your one and only desire
Am I the reason you breathe, or am I the reason you cry

Always... always... always... always... always... always...
I just can't live without you

I love you, I hate you, I can’t get around you
I breathe you, I taste you, I can't live without you
I just can't take anymore, this life of solitude
I guess that I'm out the door and now I'm done with you

Done with you, done with you, done with you, done with you,done with you

I feel, like you don't want me around
I guess I'll pack all my things, I guess I'll see you around
Its all, been bottled up until now
As I walk out your door, all I can hear is the sound of

Always... always... always... always... always... always...
I just can't live without you

I love you, I hate you, I can’t get around you
I breathe you, I taste you, I can't live without you
I just can't take anymore, this life of solitude
I guess that I'm out the door and now I'm done with you

I love you, I hate you, I can't live without you

I wrapped my head around your heart
Why would you tear my world apart?

Always... always... always... always...

I see, the blood all over your hands
Does it make you feel, more like a man?
Was it all, just a part of your plan
The pistol's shaking in my hands and all I hear is the sound

I love you, I hate you, I can't get around you
I breathe you, I taste you, I can’t live without you
I just can't take anymore, this life of solitude
I guess that I'm out the door and now I'm done with you

I love you, I hate you, I can't live without you
I love you, I hate you, I can't live without you
I just can't take anymore, this life of solitude
I pick myself off the floor and now I'm done with you

Always... always... always...

*curse*
(sorry.. tak tahan.. still angry for things)

o heyy! i just found out that josey scott is the vocalist of saliva! hahahha!! he sung hero with chad kroeger of nickleback. huhuuu~ ohh! and i saw the video clip of rest in pieces.. not nice at all! hahahha!! bongok btol la saliva nihhh..!

lambat btol la donlod lagu always nihhh! X(

bad mood...
tak bestnyeee.. :(
what makes it worse is that i can't even talk about it..
i shouldn't be feeling what i am feeling for there's nothing in between.. even if i tell about it, he'll surely think i am stupid.. :( well, he won't say "wanie, you're stupid!" but i will feel that way anyhow! and if i tell my friends about it.. they'll say i'm silly..
because i am...
and i don't need them to tell me that...
:(

marahnyee.. but it's no point
gonna be busy in some hours.