Wednesday, November 30, 2005


by John Lennon

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Imagine there's no Heaven
It's easy if you try
No hell below us
Above us only sky
Imagine all the people
Living for today

Imagine there's no countries
It isn't hard to do
Nothing to kill or die for
And no religion too
Imagine all the people
Living life in peace

You may say that I'm a dreamer
But I'm not the only one
I hope someday you'll join us
And the world will be as one

Imagine no possessions
I wonder if you can
No need for greed or hunger
A brotherhood of man
Imagine all the people
Sharing all the world

You may say that I'm a dreamer
But I'm not the only one
I hope someday you'll join us
And the world will live as one

Have a g'nite, everyone.

Was thinking about the latest episode of House on AXN. (Boy, I'm such a sucker for.. ohh, never mind!) Just to say that I'm going to enjoy these last.. six episodes. Yeah, things are just getting better. Honestly, I would cringe at some things by the 21st episode but I'd love the rest of it nonetheless.
(note: last night on AXN was episode 16; Heavy.)
Am really looking forward to next week! Will love Cameron more. heh!

Tuesday, November 29, 2005


Relatively unwell.. but chirpy indeed.

Just saw Must Love Dogs - illegal download; should be ashamed of myself! - and simply loved it!! (despite the baad sound and several shadows moving about.)
John Cusack - LOVE HIM!! He's definitely one of my favourite romantic-comedy actors there is out there. Loved him since America's Sweethearts! A little dopey, but SO charming! Him and Diane Lane.. love them both!
Ooh~ the tagline for Must Love Dogs is; "The hardest trick is making them stay". Smart!

Been doing nothing productive today, but I'm not going to get depressed over it.
Tuesday is my day!! (Although I can't confirm that it has always been. I think I used to love Thursday during my school days, but Wednesday.. Wednesday has definitely never been a favourable day.) I'm rambling. Tuesday.. is currently my FAVOURITE DAY!
So much to look forward on the telly! (Right now you would probably think that I really really am a couch potato.) Am only listening to the wise words of a man; "read less, more TV." heh! (Houseism)

Aaaanyways, TV is not the only reason why I love Tuesday - I just.. do! It's like one of those things that just happen with no apparent reason.
Rambling again.
Stopping now.

(I actually took 21minutes to type these out! *gaped in wonder*)

My immune system is pathetic.

I think I'm down with some sort of a cross between flu and fever virus. I know one side of my face hurts, and I'm not going to freak myself out by Googling on my symtoms. *sigh* Probably should've taken some Panadol when I got it last week. Actually I still haven't had any sort of medicine to help me get better! But since I'm not complaining, no one's fussing on me to eat any pills - which is perfectly fine.. for now!
Kinda experimenting on myself actually. Let's see when my antibody will kick in and kick this virus outta me. heh!

Now I'm amusing myself by thinking if I had a doctor like House. haha! He would've probably been so annoyed to see me come into the exam room with just a slightly higher temperature and a runny nose.
Is there ANY doctors like him? He's just so... humm.. actually I haven't had a single word to describe him yet. Maybe "complex". Complex works, but it doesn't portray anything special, as he is, is it? O well!

Everyone's been talking about Dida going to Rotterdam. I'm slightly.. glum. It hasn't been confirmed yet, so a part of me wishes that she wouldn't have to go after all. Of course, that is only the envious part of me talking. And yeah, I'll miss her bossiness loads. Six to eight months.. It'll be like when Nina and Dida were in boarding school again, and I had always cried whenever I came along to send them to JB. Had always wished I could've stayed with them. *sigh* Really feels like I'm eleven again.

But Rotterdam would do Dida good, I'm sure of it. It's like a really really good chance for her to grow.. gain experience.. improve her English? haha! Well, she's brilliant, but she needs to talk more of it.
So I want her to go. She deserves to go. She should go.
Maybe later she'll come back with an incredible pressie for me like last time! heh! (Last time: she went to China and came back with a guitar for me.) *sigh* And maybe she'll come back with a handsome Dutch of a boyfriend. heehee!

Yeah, Dida should be picked for the Rotterdam post, and I shall be happy for it.

Saturday, November 26, 2005


My idea of a kinda good day. Well, sort of. It was spoilt by some things, you'll see what I mean by the end of this entry.
Basics, I woke up in the morning, (such a rarity!) got to shower and off to the mall. It would've been just a perfect kind of morning if I hadn't realized that I've forgotten to stuff my black pen inside my bag while inside the train. I was hoping to get some writing done, so it bugged me so much that I went to get a new pen once l've reached Midvalley. *grunts* Yes, I did.
Anyway, I don't really have any 'business' to settle for the day, but I thought I should get out of the house or I'll never shower! (eh, confession #75, last time I showered before this morning was last Monday!! ahahhaha!)

Then I spent a little time at the line for GSC. So glad that I did! The best RM5 I spent! Took opportunity of the European Union Film Festival and saw A Good Woman, starring Scarlett Johannson and Helen Hunt. Loved the film! So simple, so witty! Loved it when the old men talk about love and marriage. They were the funniest; trying to divert the woman's attention from their withering looks and age to their hefty money. heehee. Smart scripts.

Afterwards I went to Nina's office and just talked. Been a while since we last did that. Love Nina for showing much enthusiasm to every word I said about Harry Potter, House and some other things. Always the good listener, she is. (Always, always appreciate a good listener! So hard to come by.)
Then of course, at 5:30 she head back home as I trot towards my mom's office. Just killing time until Dida's ready to come pick us up from her work. (Such a bugger, having a workaholic of a sister.)

Then here comes the nasty part. As me and my mom walked towards the Putra commuter station, we were stalked and then stopped by this seemingly half-minded person who suddenly just asked, "awak duduk mana?" ("where do you live?") I was.. speechless as funny/stupid things race into mind. My mom, being the typical panic-stricken woman that she is, thought that we should turn around and well.. get help. Didn't know what she was thinking, turning her back (and pulled mine) on that man, but I wasn't exactly a big help there. I was more focused on his hands that were lingering at his pockets. As I dottily followed where ever my mom pulls me I kept thinking how easily that man could've hit the back of my head. *sigh* (By the way, that man was still tailing us all that time.)
And then! heehee. A colleague of my mom's walked by and she told him all about the creep and he talked that creep away. *cheer cheer!*
(Sorry, not a very good suspense-thriller writer, am I?)

** viewers discretion advised **
Then the more nasty part.. Dida, the damned lucky bastard. (Yeah, she's my sister, I know.. Well, SHE SUCKS!!) Just found out that she is likely to be posted in Rotterdam for six to eight months. Rotterdam!! Darned Rotterdam!! Right across the English Channel from United Kingdom! Some miles away from Paris!! ROTTEN-DAMN!!! *screams in distress - yet silently*

Extremely annoyed.

O well. But she's definitely in a good mood! Had a very nice dinner. heehee.

>> additional photos from Storytelling.

Friday, November 25, 2005

Confession #74

(Of course, that's only a randomly picked number. Even I don't spend any time trying to trace the times I've confessed something in public; blog = public)

I like it when people are being honest with me, when they are putting theirselves out, to become truly vulnerable to someone. But I have a hard time being vulnerable. I have a hard time even admitting that I feel vulnerable. If Jack says, "if you jump, I jump," I'd say, "I see the splash when you jump, then I jump."
It's like, when I like someone, I'd do things to make him guess that I have feelings for him, but I'd never actually tell him even though it's the easiest way to go with. Consciously I trust people with my feelings, subconsciously I can't trust people with my true feelings.
Like when people ask me if I'm being absolutely truthful in my blog.. I'd say "NO". (well, the real answer would be between me and this blog, now wouldn't it? heehee.)
I see no reason for people to mask their lives, when in truth I'm masking myself. Why the heck is that? Why do I talk in circles?

Okay, I won't be surprised if other people claims that they are having troubles with being vulnerable as well. I'm just pointing mine out because I'm a big 'supporter' of fairness. Being just is important to me. If you smack me, I'd smack you back; that's fair. So why should my vulnerability is any different from others'? Why can't I seem to pour my heart out when the other person is? Why can't I be FAIR??

Freud had said: instinct of love toward an object demands a mastery to obtain it, and if a person feels they can't control the object or feel threatened by it, they act negatively toward it.
Was that it? I feel threatened??
*grunts* Psychology is so confusing!

Transcripts.. House... makes you think! *sigh*

On a different note, I just can't stop smiling with tears in my eyes now. This is, of course what usually happens when I'm hyper-excited about something - and I AM! Just very very excited. heehee! My cheeks' muscle are getting tired now.
The cure for the common medical drama.

Thursday, November 24, 2005

Miserably in love.

I've been thinking.. (no, it doesn't pain me. heh!) Who ever taught me that I need to be miserable to be happy? It's sick, I know.. but that's.. me. Exactly the reason why I enjoy myself better when I'm crushing over someone than actually being with that person. The idea of blindly adoring a boy for almost 2 years than being attached to him for 2 months. And I have a friend who can't be with someone who won't argue with her. So, what's wrong with people like us? I'm sure there's a book somewhere that would have a really smart description on my psychological condition, but until I find that book, I really wish to have a temporary explanation. Curious. Very curious, indeed.

I believe nobody is as interesting as yourself. (does that call as self-absorbed?) I'm only saying, no one's worth discovering until you discover yourself. *wink*

Getting back to where I've started from; a particular story that just pains me. An old guy, still in love with the woman he used to live with even though she's happily married with some other man. The woman loves both men but she can't stand being around the old guy. She was feeling guilty for something she had done a couple years ago and the old guy is punishing her for it. She was only trying to save his life, but he's blaming her for not following his clear "instructions". Well, it's a complicated thing, love. The old man is bitter and alone since then, yet he doesn't let anyone into his heart. Stupid. Stupid.

Point is, I don't want to be bitter and alone. I don't want to be miserable to be in love. And yet why can't I be in love without feeling miserable all the same? Why does the idea of paining myself for love doesn't bother me as much as it probably should? Some would argue that if it's love, if it's meant to be, you shouldn't be in pain at all! So why exactly am I what I am? Is an explanation possible at all? I'm miserable when in love, and perfectly fine when I'm not.
I'm... damaged, aren't I? I'm damaged even without ever being burned. I filled my head with ideas of perfection but it's nowhere near to perfect. Stupid. Stupid.
*sigh* Cheers to those who aren't in love.

Wednesday, November 23, 2005


I'm definitely having my "annoyed days"; when I simply get irritated with everything and anyone for perfectly no reason. (No, it's not the time of the month.)
I suppose this time it's because of my not-so-healthy condition. (Inconsistant sleeping hours are getting the best of me?) Feeling lousy all over. And today I had a pain at a serious point. Felt like one of those stabbing sensation.

I really really need to get a check up done. (but I hate clinics and hospitals!!) For some reasons, sickness scares me. Quick, instant death doesn't seem to scare me as much as slow.. really slow death.
So what does that tell about me? *ponders*
Funny, I can't imagine myself dying in a bed. (But I don't want to die all bloody either!) heehee. Okay. Going to stop talking about dying now. I'm starting to scare myself..

Tuesday, November 22, 2005

Slept very late last night.

Now I have extremely puffy eyes and a nasty sore throat. Remind me, why exactly did I checked on House spoilers?
Aah~ right, obsession.
I need to find a cure to boredom if I ever want to be obsessed-free. I swear, the only reason I am what I am is because of my constant need of a form of entertainment. (sounds dangerous, doesn't it?) As you might have guessed, I'm cranky because some things doesn't seem to be going my way. (don't know why the heck not! "My way" is definitely better!) I know, I know.. it's only a tv show. I'm fussing over a show, but what else can I obsess about if not tv shows?? Still think it's better than actually obsessing about a real person who doesn't deserve my time, nor my thoughts to begin with. (do I come off as somewhat bitter?) Kinda sounds like I am, eh? But I'm NOT! Bitter doesn't suit me. I may be mean, but bitter.. not possible. Anyways, getting back to my point that has been vague since I started this post; I really need to learn self-resistent. Give me boredom and a little resources.. I'd fall into the more-tempting dark world that should be easily described as "patheticness". note: I'm trying to make my words sound a little grander, if you hadn't noticed. A friend had quoted, "you have a unique sense of something" (when it comes to words.) Yeah, and she has a knack for tagging me by so many names, as the friend in question being Muz. I really need to get new friends.. but I'm annoyed by most people! gah! Just the other day I heard my sister answered politely to a semi-perverted guy who dialed her phone by mistake. To think, that I am even rude to the people I KNOW who calls me! I'm coming off rude and I have low-tolerance to sulky, incompetent salesperson who seem to think they're beeing funny when they can't answer my questions. I suppose most people are, but they try being nice and laugh at those dumb jokes. Not me, though. I show no mercy to eejits. I don't get why people work in services when they can't even spare a smile. Suppose there's that money issue: need cash badly, no matter what the job is. But God! People like that should be banned from services. What the heck were they thinking.. selling stuff with a gloom above their heads. Gits! See what I had just done? I was babbling, rambling and ranting.. and they were of 8 different topics, triggered by a simple dissatisfaction on one casual obsession. Just to show how bad it is. Obsession is not endearing, obsession is one way to see a desperation. And desperation is pathetic! (there's number 9 right there.)

Monday, November 21, 2005

I am glutted!!!

urrgh. My stomach's so full, my head hurts!! *grunts*

Went out for a celebratory dinner at Chili's. Yesterday was Mama's birthday and we couldn't celebrate it since Dida went to her colleagues' open houses all day.

Now I shall lay down in front of the telly and wait for the food to settle a bit. Dida prodded my tummy a few times after dinner and I don't feel too good since, the git.


Self resistence.

I HAVE to learn how one of these days.
Was bored, (by now you should know that I'd usually do things that I shouldn't have or babble endlessly when I get bored, but in this case;) I Googled on House. *grins*
(I'm hopeless, I know.. Muz reckons I'm a "social butterfly" for having a knack with seeing other people's relationship progression, but I believe she totally misused that term - I-AM-NOT A SOCIAL BUTTERFLY, thank you very much.) But I do have a knack in seeing chemistry between people - as long as I'm not included. My feelings blinds everything. Typical.

Anyways! How did I ever get tagged as experienced in relationships anyways?? Now to think about it.. Rai claimed that I was. And I used to know this girl who'd come to me for my thoughts on her potential-boy. Honestly! And everyone else have had better long-lasting relationship than I had. This is mind boggling!
Either they just didn't realize how pathetic I've been in my own social life, or they seem to think that I was smart. Really smart.
AHHAHAHHAHAHAH!! Hilarious. That can't possibly be it.

Eh, I went off course. House! I found this one site with the full season's transcripts. heehee. I know it should spoil my entire viewing experience, but I couldn't help it! Plus, I don't find it too wrong if I looked it up myself. Unless someone had told me about it without me even asking, I'd wallop that person's arse in an instant!
I'd say.. obviously the show has some brilliant script writers cause I have no problem laughing at them by just reading. Then I found this line.. bittersweet, don't you think?
"I thought you were too screwed up to love anyone. I was wrong. You just couldn’t love me. It’s okay. I’m happy for you."
Sorry if it gave out ideas.. just had to share this line. Period.

Anyways, here's McFLY's She Falls Asleep.
One sad song I love. If there had been a girl's voice in it, the song would've probably sounded more sad. Tom wrote this one. Said he's a fan of John Williams; explains the music, yeah? (sorry if you can't play it! not exactly sure how this works.)
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Sunday, November 20, 2005

Another boring entry.

These are the stuff I have by my bed:
Books; Oxford Advanced English Dictionary, Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire, PS I Love You, Tuesdays With Morrie, my journal & black Pilot pen.
Headphone, two purses, old movie stubs, out-dated letters that I should have sent, A4 notepad, Starbucks' insulating sleeve, Hush Puppies "Favourite Shoes" catalogue, Post-It Index Flags, a Raya card someone had sent me, thumbdrive, and the latest copy of Elle Girl which I had bought just because of the person on the cover.

Heehee. I have lotsa junk apparently.

Saturday, November 19, 2005

One dark night.

What a long rainy evening it has been!
Was bored.. so I took some pictures of outside from my room window.

I know, you can barely see anything but it was taken by Dida's cool Palm Zire 71. (which has been my favourite gadget lately. I practically dominate this thing.)

Then I took pictures with my mom's Samsung Digimax 230. Bulky - which was the reason I retired it from my bag a couple of months ago. And it uses up the battery like madness!

But the pictures turn out better, of course! Actually I just found out that there's an option for "film" quality! heehee.

ISO 200

ISO 400

Dah.. enough yacking. I am SO bored.
G'nite world!

Read and think.

..I saw you and became empty.
This emptiness, more beautiful than existence,
it obliterates existence, and yet when it comes,
existence thrives and creates more existence!

The sky is blue,
the world is a blind man squatting on the road.
But whoever sees your emptiness
sees beyond blue and beyond the blind man.

..Why should we grieve that we've been sleeping?
It doesn't matter how long we've been unconscious.
We're groggy, but let the guilt go.
Feel the motions of tenderness around you, the buoyancy.

Excerpts from my favourute favourite poem at the moment, Buoyancy by Rumi.
Have a good day, people!

Friday, November 18, 2005

"Well done, moral fibre!"

Excellent day!! Well, may not have been as I hoped it would be.. but I don't have a lot to complain. Spent exactly 13 hours outside and I'm really really pooped! (But apparently not too pooped to hold this update 'til tomorrow.)

Although we had planned to watch The Legend of Zorro, due to some unavoidable circumstances we had to miss it. *sigh* To kill time, we went to KLCC! (which we later left at quarter to 5 so we wouldn't miss Harry Potter in GSC at 5:30 pm!) We yacked, we walked, and we met Muz' brooding guy friend whom she calles "Aries guy"; who most of the time makes me feel like I should give a good slap at the back of his head. (if I could reach it.) He's really not a bad guy, but he never smiles! Except this one time when I made him laugh.. at exactly 8:45 pm - yes, I wrote the time down.
Ooh, we saw Wardina at Coffee Beans around lunch!
click to enlarge!

Okay!! Now I shall talk about Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire (Harry Potter dan Gelas Berapi - believe it!) Surprisingly.. I can't complain! Really! I sort of loved it! I love Mike Newell!!! heehee. I thought it was bloody brilliant! Of course they left some things out, but they did most of the things I love in the book! The funny ones especially! Me liiike!! It was sort of odd in some way.. This one was both the funniest, yet the darkest of all four.
The best Harry Potter movie yet. SO much better than Prisoner of Azkaban. Although you sense that little rush that they need to get the film done for 2 hours and 37 minutes, I'd say.. THIS IS STILL THE BEST HARRY POTTER MOVIE YET!!!
Go see it! Go see it!!!
Emma and Dan was really really brilliant in this one. Just love them both! Too bad Rupert didn't get as much screen time as the other two. Ooh~ and the Phelps brothers!! (Weasley twins) Love them!! Ralph Fiennes.. ooooh~ I didn't exactly imagine Lord Voldermort looking like that.
Alright alright.. enough promoting. Go see it for yourself! Wouldn't wanna spoil your viewing pleasure. heehee.

(by the way.. I've finally found a dead Pak Arab poet that I can adore! - I've been adoring dead English/American poets all these while. Feels nice somehow! hihihi!)

Goodnight goodnight, world!!

Wednesday, November 16, 2005

Trailing days..

heehee. The title would definitely NOT reflect the real entry for today.
Was bored, so I had spent the last couple of hours on Apple's movie trailer page. I can't believe the number of movies I'd like to see! If only I'd been living in the States, then I'd probably seen half of the movies on my list.
In Her Shoes (12th Jan,2006)
Elizabethtown (2nd Feb, 2006)
Prime (9th Feb, 2006)
Rumor Has It (9th Feb,2006) - Mark Ruffalo! heehee.
Yours, Mine & Ours - Danielle Panabaker as one of the kids!
Brokeback Mountain

(those are the dates when the movie will be released here)


I am rather giggly tonight, after seeing MTV's Never Before Scenes of Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire. I know I shouldn't watch those things, but I can't help it!! I'm just SO anxious!!

Thursday is going to be SUCH a movie date for me and Muz. I've already booked Zorro 2 for the morning (yeah, we both haven't seen it) and Harry Potter for the afternoon; well, late afternoon more like. Can't wait!! Really excited.

Really really excited!! Have always wanted to waste money on multiple movies on the same day! Finally getting it! hihihihihi!

And now I shall wait patiently for Thursday.. and House on 2am! hihhihihi.
All giggly.
G'nite world!

Tuesday, November 15, 2005

eh.. Disturbed...

Brokeback Mountain
Just found out about this movie. Really disturbing.
Heath Ledger and Jake Gyllenhaal?
*sigh* Such a sad saad day...
(but I heard the film is good! - very verrry good.)

Monday, November 14, 2005


my favourite doctors on television
I love talking about House. Everytime I think about the show.. I can think up of something philosphical. Looking forward to tomorrow for another episode on AXN. Another 8 episodes of this current first season. And since I know no self-resistant, I've looked up on some episode summaries and now I'm especially looking forward to the 20th episode!
(That's six weeks from now.. *sigh*)

Scary questions.

Hihi. Cik Ila just asked me one of the scariest questions I've ever met in my life.

Are you happy?

Hihi. (If you'd known me pretty well.. I usually dodge - or TRY to dodge "hard" questions with laughter.)
I'm a person of ideas.. to explain exactly my thoughts and what I feel would probably take half a day. Plus, "happy" is so abstract to me.
So, questions like "are you happy?" or "what are your plans?" or "are you in love?" just give me shivers most of the time.

But in attempt to answer your question, Cik Ila..
I am mostly happy. Of course there's room for me to be happier but I'll work on that sometime soon.

To fellow MMU students, good luck in the new semester!
And I'd like to give a shout out to my couzie Sarah who's starting her exam today! whooppee! Hope she'll do a great job! My sisters are blaming my batch for the horrible impression on the smaller couzies.
(There are seven elder ones in my extended family then there's me with my two cousins in the same batch. The elders did respectively great on their SPM and us three.. pretty much started the sucky ones. hehe!)

Sunday, November 13, 2005

These kids are SO grown up!

dan, emma and rupert!
Looking forward to next Thursdaayy! I indulged myself to a short clip from the film that isn't in the trailer and now I'm just so excited to laugh about it with Muz!

Three cheers!!!

Stupid Frank Lampard.

Gooooood Michael Owen!!
And Wayne Rooney.
And Steven Gerrard,
and Joe Cole.
(and who ever passed the ball to Rooney for the first goal - which I didn't get to see cause my mom was watching this lame Hindi movie on TV2)

Brilliant brilliant play at the last minutes. hihi.

New textbook.

That's what Tuesdays With Morrie shall be to me from now on.
Although the story left me pretty poignant once I finished reading it, I really reaaally hope I'd be able to see life as Morrie had seen it.

See. I've been told that I've kept my guard up all the time. And once, a guy told me that I am afraid of getting hurt. So! The question is, don't you have to be broken to be afraid?? Honestly, I don't remember being burned so how did I become.. broken? It doesn't make any sense!
And it just upsets me, reading all the time Morrie talks about love.
Well, I've forgotten what my point was when I started this but certainly.. I still have lots of things to figure out!

Okay. Moving on.. I got a silly short message at 12 am this morning! It was a birthday wish for me - which wasn't until next month!! *rofl*
Going to be nice here by not saying his name. But I kinda like the idea of embarrassing him a little by this post! hihi. Sorry.. too much temptation!

Good night, world!

Friday, November 11, 2005

A sorrowful day..

I'm very close to tears today. Reading about Morrie did something to me. Of course, I've never been too shy with my emotions, but Morrie made me realize how stumpy my feelings really are. I realize today that I still have a lot of things to learn.. to feel. I also realize that I haven't shown my true feelings to the ones I love.
So I hugged my mom. And I hugged my dad. I couldn't say any words, though. So I hoped that they had felt my heart going to them in the embrace.

And earlier today I was working on something dear to me. For some odd reasons I can't help but started to weep.
For these tears are a wise man, who had died long before I was born. His goodness will I remember and his wisdom will I try to follow.

"If you are going through hell, keep going."
- Winston Churchill.
 On this day, Morrie says he has an exercise for us to try.
We are to stand, facing away from our classmates, and fall backward, relying on another student to catch us. Most of us are uncomfortable with this, and we cannot let go for more than a few inches before stopping ourselves. We laugh in embarrassment.

 Finally, one student, a thin, quiet, dark-haired girl whom I notice almost always wears bulky white fisherman sweaters, crosses her arms over her chest, closes her eyes, leans back, and does not flinch, like one of those Lipton comercials where the model splashes into the pool.

 For a moment, I am sure she is going to thump on the floor. At the last instant, her assigned partner grabs her head and shoulders and yanks her up harshly.
 "Whoa!" several students yell. Some clap.

 Morrie finally smiles.
 "You see," he says to the girl, "you closed your eyes. That was the difference. Sometimes you cannot believe what you see, you have to believe what you feel. And if you are ever going to have other people trust you, you must feel that you can trust them too - even when you're in the dark. Even when you're falling."

Home by half-ten.

Had an enjoyable day with Muz. Although she kept me waiting for almost an hour, it's really hard to be mad at her! She's simply.. one of the very few people that I give a rat's ass. (That pretty much translates as "one of the very few people that I listen to")

Anyways! Saw Just Like Heaven and loved it! I suppose you could say that it's a chick flick, but as Will Smith had said about his movie Hitch, I'd say this one is a "comedy romance" than the usual romantic comedy.
That Mark Ruffalo.. such a scruffy charming man - ME LIKE!! ekkeke! The film was fun. Lots of witty lines, such as "God made alcohol as a social lubricant. To make men brave, and to make women loose!" Who actually talks like that?? hihi.
Though it has a different ending than the original novel If Only It Were True by Marc Levy. So if you're planning on seeing this one, DON'T make the same mistake as I did! (I picked the book up in MPH some two weeks ago and flipped it through to the last few pages so I'd know how it ends. I know - it should be a CRIME!) I was slightly disappointed that it didn't end as the book did, but it wasn't so bad. GO SEE IT!

Checked around the bookstore and finally.. FINALLY!! I bought this book! Had always always wanted to own it, so FINALLY! Don't feel like reading it at my usual pace though. I'm going to take it slow and easy. Morrie.. wonderful wonderful man.

Spent RM83 the entire day. I'm coming to terms that I may never save a cent.

G'nite world!

Wednesday, November 09, 2005

About a boy.

I received a call from an old friend yesterday. Well, not exactly an old friend.. he was an acquaintance that got in touch with me since the past week or so.
I thought he was amazing! Well, maybe not really amazing, but amusing, definitely.
I never ever chatted with him or spoke a word with him. We had only started communicating through that Friendster messaging last week. Then we exchanged numbers and started smsing. So yesterday he called me and asked if I wanted to hang out. Being a very typical of me, I said "no" o'course. I even manage to make it come out pretty rude. And then, later that night he called again for a chat and surprisingly it was fun!

I never thought that we could actually talk for quite some time (until his battery died) when we've never exchanged words since.. ever! (we were classmates when we were 15) Later he smsed saying he had fun talking to me. hihi! How 'bout that..

It's been so long since I last talked to people outside my circle, I've forgotten how charming I could be.

G'nite world.

ooh~ update!
Your Blog Should Be Purple

You're an expressive, offbeat blogger who tends to write about anything and everything.
You tend to set blogging trends, and you're the most likely to write your own meme or survey.
You are a bit distant though. Your blog is all about you - not what anyone else has to say.

I find this amusing! I actually never used purple before.. hummm.. *pondering blissfully*

Tuesday, November 08, 2005


Irritated for being so uninspired and sodding lazy.

Trying to think of some theme to make a new layout for the blog. Getting tired of looking at myself too much. And don't you think the pic looks a bit depressing? Well, I think it's a little depressing. Don't know why the heck I like to take pictures of the top of my head. It's not even remotely attractive!

Going to pause all thoughts until I come up with a new layout.

hush hush.

Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire premieres... yesterday in London.(Malaysia time!)
How annoying.
And I have to wait for a whole 10 days before I get any chance of seeing it in the cinema. I expect that I'll complaint a lot once I've seen it, but the thought shouldn't hinder me from actually seeing it now should it?
I've already made plans to see it with Muz and she was shocked when I asked her yesterday. (I'm a terrible planner and she knows it!)

Hopefully she won't be too busy tomorrow. (Later today, I mean.) Kinda hoping to have lunch with her, though I haven't asked her yet. hehe.

Sunday, November 06, 2005

My whole darned body aches!!!

Try spending most of 15 hours in a car.

Me and the rest of the family went to Perak on 3rd Syawal. I suppose we didn't mean to stay in the car for that long, but Mama thought we should visit this one house that she'd never been to. Spent almost 2 hours just trying to find it!
Then, instead of heading straight back home Papa had promised to visit Cik Mohlis first. (Silent H! He's my father's brother anyways.) It was fine, but I hope everyone would just stop asking me when I'd finish school!! (ooh~ but Cik Mohlis gave me RM15 for duit raya! ahahha!! and Cik GG said that I have a nice figure! WAHHAHAHA!!)
Nina and Jasmin Abg. Min were supposed to spend the night in Shah Alam but something happened and they decided to go back to Seremban instead.

Sorry if this post doesn't make too much sense. My body just aches so bad, too much pain signals and my brain is left disabled to think of anything else.

I must've went speechless at least a dozen times since the past three days. Maybe I should stick a post-it on my forehead telling that everyone ought to stop asking me what I've been up to.

Friday, November 04, 2005

Sleepless in Shah Alam.

G'morning world!

I remembered my science teacher used to say; if you're insomniac; you can't get to sleep at night, you should refrain yourself from napping in the afternoon.
I knew she was right..
Yet I napped anyways!
Now I'm suffering the consequence.

First Raya was fine. Didn't get to see most of my uncs, aunties and couzies though. Me and the family head out at about 11 and once we got to Meru (that's in Klang, if you hadn't known) Papa phoned his brother and he told Papa that he and the rest were just about to go out and visit the rest of the extended family.
So we end up visiting that extended family members but never bumped into the couzies.
(Am I making any sense here?)

After that we went back home since Papa didn't feel too well.
But at 9pm, we (me, Dida and Mama) went off to see Wan-de in Keramat. Always liked visiting her 'coz she's a pretty fine cook! hihi. (Wan-de is my mom's eldest sister.)
Only head back home at 11!

Read today's horoscope on Friendster and I find it highly amusing!
Sagittarians can deal with just about anything. They can make a joke of it, laugh it off and move on. But there's one thing a Sag just can't stand to hear: 'If you loved me, you would.' In your mind, that translates into a threat to your personal freedom, and it definitely won't work. (It also sounds like a precursor to guilt, something else Sags can't stand.) Heaven help anyone who tries any of that on you now.

Finally remembered to download this.. a song which I simply ADORE!
Counting Down The Days by Natalie Imbruglia

You were right
And I don't wanna be here
If you're gonna be there
Was that supposed to happen?

I'll hold tight
I'll remember to smile
Though it has been a while
And without you does it matter?

There's no room
No place to start
When our souls are apart

I wanna travel through time
See your surprise
Hold you so tight
I'm counting down the days tonight
I just wanna be a million miles away from here
I'm counting down the days

How've you been?
It's just the usual here
And days are feeling like years
And every day's without you

Now I cry
Just a little too much
When I think of your touch
And everything about you

I feel cold
I'm in the dark
When our souls are apart

I wanna travel through time
See your surprise
Hold you so tight
I'm counting down the days tonight
I just wanna be a million miles away from here

I'm counting down the days

I'm gonna be your surprise
I'm gonna hold you so tight

I wanna travel through time
See your surprise
I'd hold you so tight
I'm counting down the days tonight
I just wanna be a million miles away from here

A million miles away from here

Btw, to those who smsed me well-wishes these last few days, I promise I'll send a reply as soon as I can! hihi.

Thursday, November 03, 2005



To my favourite favourite people,
Sorry if I'd done anything so wrong that I actually have to be sorry for. hehe!
I'm sure if there's any, I didn't mean to. Really.

To everyone else,
Hope you'll have loads of fun, good food and duit raya!!
Remember, my birthday is next month! ahahahha!!

Take care all!

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