Friday, February 27, 2009

Back to reality.

..when Narcissus died, the goddesses of the forest appeared and found the lake, which had been fresh water, transformed into a lake of salty tears.
"Why do you weep?" the goddesses asked.
"I weep for Narcissus," the lake replied.
"Ah, it is no surprise that you weep for Narcissus," they said, "for though we always pursued him in the forest, you alone could contemplate his beauty close at hand."
"But... was Narcissus beautiful?" the lake asked.
"Who better than you to know that?" the goddesses said in wonder. "After all, it was by your banks that he knelt each day to contemplate himself!"
The lake was silent for some time. Finally it said:
"I weep for Narcissus, but I never noticed that Narcissus was beautiful. I weep because, each time he knelt beside my banks, I could see, in the depths of his eyes, my own beauty reflected."

Prologue, The Alchemist by Paulo Coelho

I can't help but relate..

Going back to Shah Alam in a few hours.
I can't bring myself to call it home. The house I grew up in hasn't been "home" for a while. Incidentally, home is still sleeping at the moment because I was crying and sleep-talking last night that he felt the necessity to look after me instead of getting some sleep himself. gah!

So anyway.. I've cried. So there shouldn't be any more.
I'll just suck it up -- and go back!
It's not like going back is all bad. I received a really good news in my inbox last night that I kept doing a jig. (Boyfie was amused.) Turned out that I did pretty well in the interview last month so I'm just going to have to wait for the call where they'll tell me to get my medical check-up. I've been worrying if saying "I have no idea" was too harsh when the interviewer asked me how to become proactive in the instance he'd given me. bah!
Sometimes words just came out of my mouth and I wish I could take them back.. Anyway, no more worrying 'cause they liked me after all! woohooo!! Now.. I hope my health is good enough for the job. hehe.

hmm.. think I ought to get my shower before I get too lazy or immersed in the fact that I really am going back after spending 5 days with Boyfie.. sigh.


Unknown said...

when you said shah alam, were u referring to uitm??

Monkey's Bunny said...

no. I live there with my family.

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