I wish it wasn't so..

I feel wretched.
By myself.
Ever feel that way? A pure wretchedness, total disgust of whom you have become.

To have wanted something else; a whole different idea, an expectation, even.. That you are better than this.
But you are not.
I - am NOT.

I don't know what else to say. I am greatly disappointed and at the same time I am sad. There is no such thing as a win-win situation in my book but there is definitely a lose-lose situation..