Saturday, June 04, 2011

Losing my mind.

I've always feared that.
Alzheimer's actually.
Losing your memory.. Losing yourself.. bit by bit and and only after there is no YOU left inside you, death comes along.
I hate being clueless. I hate being lost.

So I've been forgetting a lot of things lately. I almost forgot Papa's birthday on the second. I couldn't tell the time properly last night. And I keep misplacing things and forgetting important things behind. How silly could you be to forget your toiletries when you know you're going on a quick weekend retrieve -- TWICE! I said twice because the first time I forgot about it, I wrote a note of things that I need to take when I get back. And yet, despite the note I still forgot to take it with me when I left the apartment.
*curses*

What's more frustrating, instead of Dida being mad for having to drive me back and forth from Shah Alam to Bukit Jalil and wasting her time, she simply suggested that I should see a doctor about it.
She knows me for being forgetful and she knows that it's getting worse.

So yeah.. I'm freaking out. I'm freaking out but you won't see it 'cause I keep forgetting that I have this problem of remembering things. Hahahaha! (Not funny, really.)

If I do see a doctor, what am I supposed to say anyway? "Hello doctor, I think I've become more forgetful.." That just sounds silly..

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11 comments:

s a L o m a said...

Aku rasa most cc ada prob sama la..takkan nak stop flying..sayang la kan?so,byk2 mkn kismis n jgn tengok org berbogel selalu.ahahahah :p

lil^witch said...

Hahahaha ooops kantoi.. Hahaahhaahahaha

ablen said...

omg~!!.. >.<... u still remember me rite ?? :p

amyan.ms. said...

if you do see a doctor, you're supposed to say "hello doctor, i actually forgot why i'm here" :P

lil^witch said...

Ablen.. hmm.. Ablen.. Ablen.. hmmmmm.. Ablen mana eh? :P

Good one cik Amyan but I suppose kalau dah sampai ke tahap tu, probably someone else yang brought me to the doctor..

amyan.ms. said...

then you'd be asking the person "who are you? and why are you bringing me to this person with a white coat?", hahahah :P

anywaayyy, try do some mathematics, sudoku, crossword puzzles and all those things yang boleh exercise your brain. and, err, write more? hahahah! (that's just me saying i'm gonna miss you and this blog if you'd gone bonkers!)

lil^witch said...

Hahahahhaha

Awwhhh.. So sweet of you.. I dah lama tak main sudoku come to think of it. Baca buku pun tak habis habis.. sigh

ablen said...

alaa~.. ablen yg dulu pinjam buku harry potter wanie tuu.. takkan tak ingat kot~.. :p

lil^witch said...

Hahahahahha :P

Alif Iskandar Tareh said...

U watch grey too much kot :p
But come to think about it, alzheimer is the worst case scenario kot, its better to die early rather than being alive and yet all empty inside.

lil^witch said...

hehe memang banyak tengok Grey's pun.. tapi dari dulu I memang takut going senile.

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