Not sure if I really am but things do feel different.
Boyfriend's posted in Algeria for a charter program and here I am left all to myself with all kinds of thoughts. If I am honest, I am feeling pretty lonely. And there's nothing more thought-provoking than this kind of loneliness.
It's only been two weeks and I am a mess.
Can I scream into the dark night?
I feel stuck in a whole lot of nothingness.
That doesn't sound right, does it?
I don't need a man to survive, but what will become of me surviving without my man?
Can I hate him for leaving?
Yes, he is coming back in a few weeks but in what state will I be by then?
Why did he have to be such a damn good friend in the first place? I feel like I am missing my boyfriend and bestfriend at the same time!
Okay, I am starting to get a headache from trying to hold in the tears. Yes, I am pathetic that way.
Somehow I prefer writing entries where I am just plainly pissed with him than this sappy "tu me manques" blog post.
Je te déteste, mon singe!