Thursday, January 29, 2015

Of course I'm fine!

I mean, who would ever confess how they really feel when asked if they're okay?
Not me, definitely.
Anyway, I'm thankful for having family and friends who are well attuned to my moods -- or at least my tweets! hahahhaha!

If I'm being honest, I've been feeling like crap for the past few days. I don't know why it's so hard to say it out loud. Well, I know. I don't want to get those judgy quizzical looks and have to deal with questions that I don't have the answers for.
Sometimes I get shit handed to me and my being just makes it ten thousands worse.
I don't know! I wish I do.. but I don't!

Maybe I'm depressed. Maybe my mood swings and insomnia could attest to that. Maybe I'm just hopeless, who knows?

Maybe I'll die alone.
Maybe I deserve that.
Maybe I was put here to be a conundrum to everyone and even myself!

What I do know, I've successfully given myself a headache from trying to word my feelings in this entry. Should I even call this an entry? I doubt it.

Anyway, I had the past couple of days off and despite wanting to do a lot of things, I got myself stuck in bed just reading..
Sometimes I feel like I could get a lot of shit done if I hated reading.

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