cerita klakar.

it's so funny that it's getting VERY absurd.

it started out with me having one amazing friend and some other good friends. and something happened (something always happen!) and now i don't know if i have anyone left.
ekekkeke! of course la i do, kan. how can i live without those peeps. tapi now i am having doubts about things.. having doubts about myself.

how far... "yadda yadda yadda.." (i don't think you guys wanna read that part. lagipun, if i type them, someone somewhere would use it against me somehow so i better not really say what i really mean to say)

i don't know laa.. being too honest is SUCH a CURSE. tak percaya? well, you're not in my shoes, are you? i think it's just amazing how people use my words to get back at me. JUST AMAZING! cam.. pandainyeeee! (this is a compliment)
and another thing that is amazing is how i can keep people's secret to myself while i just blabbed about my things stupidly only to wish that i could take it back a while later.

entahlah.
i still can't say what i'm really feeling. everything seems like a big blur. i can't even decide if i'm really smiling or just faking it. real.. kot? :P

right now i don't know why i am typing this all out. just to waste time, maybe? :)
i think this whole blog is stupid. really. i don't know why i even bother. addicted kot! just like everything else in my life. even when i know it's bad for me, i still do it 'coz of an addiction. and it's so hard to stop because it had turned into a habbit.
but just like any other habbit.. you can really kill it off.
i used to fidget real bad, but i got over that.
i used to munch on gum anytime of the day, now i don't even like it anymore!

tapi skarang... heehee! o man! i really wish to say this one line but i'd be giving out too much lah if i do! grr! :P

okay! lagi satu lagu;
Inner Strength by Hilary Duff

Gotta find your inner strength
If you can't then just throw life away
Gotta learn to rely on you
Beauty, strength, and wisdom, too
You're beautiful inside and out
Lead a great life without a doubt
Don't need a man to make things fair
'Cuz more than likely he won't be there
Listen girl, gotta know it's true
In the end all you've got is you

haihh.. susahnyee laa having all these things to talk about but no one to talk to. sheesh!
brrr.

o yahh.. i am expecting to be MISUNDERSTOOD from this whole post as i always do in my EVERY other post everytime i really speak my mind. bosan~