What's happening, here?
I don't wanna run away but I can't take it, I don't understand
If I'm not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am?
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?

'Coz I miss you body and soul so strong that it takes my breath away
And I breathe you into my heart and pray for the stregth to stand today
'Coz I love you whether it's wrong or right,
and though I can't be with you tonight, you know my heart is by your side
* If You're Not The One by Daniel Bedingfield *

Why am I listening to this song again? Bluerrghh... Kenape ni? Kenape ni? Kenape nieeeeee???? I am feeling... I don't know!! Shit, I hate this!! Feels like my heart is somewhere else.. and I've been doing things without it's approval.. and it sucked really bad!! Life becomes so crappy.. so suddenly!! Urrghhh!! I HATE!!!!!!!! Help... feeling so helpless.. Why????
Why.. does my heart aches this day? Why.. does my hands tremble all of a sudden? Why.. can't I keep my mind straight? Why.. do I feel so lost??