Wednesday, January 14, 2004

pre-menstrual symtoms?

pms is it??
entahlaa.. maybe not, but i've been having a pretty rough mood these days. rase nak saiko sikit, but there's no reason for being so. huhuu~ mengade.. hypochondriac!

hypochondriac comes from the word hypochondria which means.. err.. go to dictionary.com for a precise meaning, but from what i understand.. maksudnye macam.. believing that you're sick even when medical results shows you're NOT sick. mengade laa.. manje.. manje.. ekkeke!!

what a tiring day..
sooo tired..
my back terase nak tertanggal..!

morning.. thought that i have the whole afternoon, free~! but then prisca told me that rosie-p told her that there were rejection of that story-telling photos in the morning's submission. adohai! boncit!!! hilang segala cool.. first thought of just resubmitting the same photo tomorrow, but we (prisc, rp and myself) end up going to the photo lab anyways to develop some pictures... bluerghh~!!
continued developing the pictures at 2 something with prisc.. UNSATISFIED even 'til the end!! my work is SO crappy!! honestly.. it's almost as if i've never develop my own picture.. stupid.. stupid..
really stupid!!
the only compensation from today is the fact that i had a good laugh with the three hobbitses after me and prisc were done, outside the lab. i brought my daun terop along just to kill some time while waiting for 2 o'clock.. but end up, all of us four played a game which rp called "mari kite lihat siapa yg kena~!" ekkekeke!! it's a weird fortune-telling plus Q&A game.. but it brought us laughs.. (mane tak nyee.. ade ke kasi soklan soklan bongok!) memang tak digalakkan untuk percaya game tu.. (or my life would be quite a disaster!! sediiiihhh!!!)
but it was a nice game to kill time.. :D

7 o'clock and it's still bright outside..
the sky is so beautiful..
and the clouds seem to be calling out.
you can actually believe that you may jump from cloud to cloud..
it's really beautiful!
it really is..
wish i'd feel the same for myself..
when i just feel like a real crap!

i hate uncertainty..
it blows my mind.
and i also hate jealousy..
especially when you don't know what you're really jealous of!
crazy git..
the airhead that i am.. bluerghh!!

see seee!! i am really acting like a real psycho here..
crap!

like this song, though...
Imaginary by Evanescence

i linger in the doorway
of alarm clock screaming monsters calling my name
let me stay
where the wind will whisper to me
where the raindrops as they're falling tell a story

in my field of paper flowers
and candy clouds of lullaby
i lie inside myself for hours
and watch my purple sky fly over me

don't say i'm out of touch
with this rampant chaos - your reality
i know well what lies beyond my sleeping refuge
the nightmare i built my own world to escape

in my field of paper flowers
and candy clouds of lullaby
i lie inside myself for hours
and watch my purple sky fly over me

swallowed up in the sound of my screaming
cannot cease for the fear of silent nights
oh how i long for the deep sleep dreaming
the goddess of imaginary light


dizzy up this girl~!

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